Chapter 244 - I’m Sorry
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CHAPTER 244
Shocked by his speed and the hug he pulled her into, Jade tried to shake him off but Xander refused to let go, burying his face close to her neck.
"Please. Do not go, I got scared earlier on when Jenny called me. I was scared of losing you, please. I know I may seem irrational but I am in love with you, Jade. I am so scared of losing you."
He was being irrational. It was going to take more than that to hurt her. She was born and brought up in the mafia world. Danger had been her best friend and she had played with it every day of her life, so why now was he being like this.
"Just please. Don't struggle. You are hurting me."
He pulled away after some time when she relaxed into the hug and let him do that which he wanted.
Looking at her eyes but still holding her close, Xander lowered his head, bringing his lips close to hers for a kiss and just when their lips were to touch, Jade turned her head to the side.
A sad smile spread out on his like as he shut his eyes briefly, bringing his lower lips back into his mouth to gently such on it before releasing it and with it a deep voice.
She still did not do anything, knowing his need, she ignored him willingly.
Call her wicked, heartless, it wasn't easy for her. She loved him too but she did not want everything to be about sex with them and she found it hard.
Anytime she thought about him, she had the faces of her family members brush past in her mind, reminding her they were no more and these actions took them away from her for good.
The hurt and pain were still fresh that was why it was way harder to let go and accept him back.
Seeing that she was not going to budge, he shook his head then lowered his head on her neck, taking in her scent, assaulting his nostrils with the mild smell of her arousal.
His eyes shot wide a bit as he realized what was wrong.
She was acting like it was not affecting her but in reality, she was affected and just being with him, she wanted him too but she was letting her mind take control, here and not her brain.
He did not want to be insensitive as well so he wasn't going to call her to it either. In da t the mere fact that he showed her all of these things had made her mind go hazy as she felt touched by the extent he went with his affection for her. She wanted nothing more but to be in his arms and allow him to shower her with warmth but she recalled again her family, the day of the assassination and the fact that she still had work to do so she backed away again, denying her heart and body what they wanted.
"I'm sorry."
"I am sorry too."
"Wha..."
The words had barely left her mouth then Xander buried his face and lips at the bridge joining her neck to her shoulders and sucked on it, kissing and licking it ever so tenderly.
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Her eyes widened, understanding what he was doing as she was getting roused almost instantly. He kept at it, causing electricity of pleasures to go wide on her skin as her body began to heat up.
She felt a moan dropping up her throat to her mouth and bit down hard on her lips to prevent herself from letting it out even though her body was dying to do that so he could give her more of what she wanted.
Sensing the result of his work, he continued, bringing his lips back hp go her neck and sucking on her exposed flesh.
Jade was a writhingly mess as she struggled against his frame but he was strong and adamant.
Now she knew why it was both a blessing and a disadvantage to have a powerful lover such as himself.
She struggled even more when she felt his hot breath against her earlobe. That was another sensitive spot she had and he knew just where to get their.
If he started nibbling on it or even blowing hot air down on her ear, she was going to get weak around her knees.
She knew better than ever that she needed to stop him before he stoked the fires of their mate bond more.
Using her hands, after managing to free her hands from his hold, she pushed against his chest with all the strength she had.
Thinking he had done enough( to start what would ebher doom, Xander finally let go of her who.e wearing a cold damn ass mischievous smirk on his face, making him look like a sexy god.
She touched her neck, feeling the what still emanating from her skin, she looked at him with anger seething in net eyes. "I hate you."
He let out a low chuckle, his Adam apple bobbing up and down as he lifted his left hand and brush his hair back, giving him more of that sexy, no innocent look that you.d make girls swoon.
He really as trying hard without even bothering to try as it as his natural charm.
She clenched her first at her sides while biting down hard on her lower lip. He had gotten what he wanted. She has already aroused thanks to his ministrations.
He sniffed a bit, catching her scent and letting his tongue out a little. She should blame herself for letting Xavier go out of control in his mind and doing that to her.
She closed had eyes, willing herself to ignore the heat between her legs as she let out the words he wasn't expecting her to say all of a sudden.
"I'm sorry but this, all of this isn't for me. I cannot stay here with you.. I appreciate what you did for saving us but I would not pay you back with my body."