Lord Shadow

‘I want to forget but I can’t forget. I want to erase the trace they put in my heart, but the more I tried to erase, the clear the trace became. Since it could not be forgotten, since it could not be erased, I have to live with them. Those two women is two women who is deserved to be loved.’ Azief said

Sina nodded.

‘I just hope this story will not end tragically’ Azief nodded and said

‘Well, me too’ There was silence and then he said

‘Loki had leave’ Sina eyebrows raised up. She nodded and reply with

‘He said as much.’ Azief think that when he came here, she was waiting for Loki. Maybe she too had hoped that Loki would not leave

Sina must have thought that compared to his love life, her love life is not that complicated. But if she knew the truth, Azief bet she wouldn’t feel that way.

Loki is someone that comes from another timeline. His head knows many things that would happen in the future and as such, his opinions and thoughts on certain things would be hard to understand by the point of view of those who lived in the current present.

Loki is an old soul even if his body is still around teenage years

Then Azief ask her

‘Why would he leave? I won’t treat him badly. Under me, who could harm him? Instead of going wandering outside of Pandemonium where there is always an uncertain factor there’

Sina thought of this question for a moment. She had lived with Loki for six years. 

Even though, she could not confidently say that she knew everything there is to know about Loki, there is something that she knows.

Loki decision to leave is not something that she planned in a day. This is a plan six years in the making. 

Loki had told him beforehand that the day Death Monarch returns, is the day he leaves Pandemonium. 

Even though, those word were meant to prepare her, when the time comes for him to leave, there is this faint hope that Loki would stay. 

It is the reason why she set up a table under the trees, while sipping some coffee waiting for him in their spot.

Instead, it was Azief here and Loki had gone. Azief is still waiting for her answer.

Then she takes another sip of the coffee and then after savoring the taste, she put down the cup and then reply with

‘For you. He did it for you’ she said. Azief frowned.

‘For me?’ she nodded. Azief was silent for a while before saying

‘What does that supposed to mean?’ He asks. Sina smiles bitterly and said

‘I don’t know either. He said he needs to leave. There is something he must do’ Azief was silent. He is trying to understand Loki.

The gap of knowledge that they both possess makes understanding Loki actions very hard to do.

Then Sina said 

‘The only one that truly believe that you would return is Sasha, Soph and Loki’

‘Don’t forget Will’ Sina shakes her head and then said

‘No, I am pretty sure that Will believe you have a fifty-fifty chance to return home’ Azief chuckles a bit. And then he asks

‘I notice that you don’t put yourself in that list’

Sina chuckles. 

‘Has it ever mattered whether I believe you could return or not? From my experience, the more I believe that you would die the more likely you survive. So, I believe that you will die’ she said and Azief smiles. 

In other words, this is one of Sina habits. She thought that if she believes the worst scenario of something, it would happen the opposite of what she is thinking. Azief could not help but felt touched. 

Because when Sina hoped that you would die, she is actually hoping for you to be alive. It is an honor to be wish to go die by Sina, he thought to himself 

‘So, are you just coming for coffee or is there another reason why you are here?

‘I might be going somewhere again’ Sina glares at him and then she said as calmly as possible.

‘Where to?’

‘I don’t know yet’ he answered. Sina then frowned.

‘She waited for you for six years’ and she looks at him, expecting an answer. A good enough answer to justify the decision 

But the answer would never be simple. Especially for him. What happened to him was an extraordinary event.

It is not every day one could see their own future. 

The only thing that made him hesitate was because the vison. He wanted to confirm it, whether it is truly his future he is looking at or some other future of him in the multiversal line.

But even as he thinks of that, he knew and was confident that future he saw was his future and not anybody else. 

And because he knew, he had to leave. This kind of thing is obvious to him but it would not be obvious to anyone else. 

And the more he tries to explain, the more he knew how hard it is for him to convince himself. He did not know how to say these thing to Sina and as such he didn’t bother.

Azief knew whatever answer he would say would never satisfy anyone. 

He didn’t know how to explain it either because it is hard to explain it in the first place. And now Sina is saying that Sofia has waited for him for six years. 

So the only thing he could respond to that was

‘I know

‘Then why go?’ she asks. Azief smiles bitterly and then he repeats the answer that Sina gave him before.

‘For her’ he answers. Sina closes her eyes. No one knows what she is thinking about. But like Loki leaving Pandemonium and Azief decision to leave, both of them is doing it for someone else

‘I thought you only lived for yourself’ she said solemnly. Azief chuckles a bit and he nodded

‘I did. I was.’ 

‘Then why change?’

Azief look at the stars above his head, seeing it twinkle, glittering like diamonds hanging up in the expansive clear sky. 

‘It is a beautiful night to be talking about sad things, he thought to himself.

Smiling, he answered

‘It is too lonely to live only for yourself’ Sina look at Azief and she don’t know how to feel right now. 

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