Imperfect Desires

Xin Xiaoli couldn't describe his feelings when he left her room and leaned against the door as he closed his eyes briefly. All of these feelings had been deeply buried in his heart for too long. He truly never thought there would come a day he'd treat her like this.

After all, she was still the woman he loved the most in his life. And even when she only used him, took advantage of his feelings, he allowed her to do it. Maybe he was just lying to himself that someday it'd change. But even when he felt tired, he didn't give up on her or on loving her. 

But when suddenly learned that this woman didn't even hesitate before killing their unborn child, he finally felt something breaking within him. She committed such a sin and yet, she had the audacity to stand before him as nothing happened. She was the one in the wrong and yet, she kept making him lower his head before her.

And he was the real foolish who kept lowering his head before her even when she didn't deserve it. She didn't deserve any of it. He took a deep breath and opened his eyes. Actually, he was glad things turned out this way. This really made everything a lot easier for him and he wouldn't have to look at her face and be reminded of what she did to him.

His eyes fell on her parents who looked at him with sympathetic eyes and asked, "You heard everything?"

Zhao Wei covered her mouth as she silently wept while Qiu Jiayi gave him a response with a nod of his head.

Before he would turn to leave, he heard Zhao Wei's voice, "Why didn't you say anything? I should have never sent you to her after her divorce. I..."

Xin Xiaoli chuckled and said, "Aunt, you think that's your real fault?" Zhao Wei looked at him strangely as he went on, "Your real mistake began when you started comparing your daughter to someone else. Parents don't realize the damage they can do to their children. It's parents who shape their child's future and their personality. While you wanted her to excel in everything like Ying, you made her believe that she was no good. That left a mark on her from a very early age and she did whatever she could to get your attention. However, she didn't want your praise, at that time, she wanted to see just how far you could go."

Zhao Wei was quiet in reply.

"She is what she is because of you. You both did this to her. One of you continued to try to make her see the light by trying to scorn her and the other continued to indulge her. Either way, you both really pushed her to become this unrecognizable person she is today."

He turned around and walked away. He stopped a few steps away and said, "I'd advise you both to think about your next move wisely. As parents, you must be hurting but you can't save her. Not this time."

After that, his steps didn't stop until he reached the elevator. What he said were his honest thoughts. He truly believed that if Zhao Wei had never compared Qiu Meihui to other people, she would never have grown to become like this. 

As he took the elevator to Xiu's floor, he was taken aback to see how his way was blocked.

"Sir, you can't enter without permission," said one of the men in the black suit.

Xin Xiaoli scowled. He knew his father had security on this floor when he cleared the whole floor yesterday but did he really need permission to enter now? Why? What happened?

He had a bad feeling crawling up in his heart. He said, "Call Yan Ying. She is your superior, isn't she?"

The men shared a look before replying, "Team leader Yan is injured. Currently, she also doesn't have the authority to let you in."

"Then whose commands are you following?" 

Before he could get a reply, he heard Su Feifei's voice, "Let him come."

Xin Xiaoli ran over to her side hurriedly and looked at her with concern, "What's going on? What happened? Why is Ying injured? Is she okay? Where is she?"

Su Feifei patted his shoulder and said, "Take it slow."

Seeing her calm expressions, he didn't feel good. He knew how calm Su Feifei could look in the worst of conditions. There was definitely something wrong!

"Aunt Fei!"

She sighed out, "There's been an attack." His body stiffened as his eyes widened in shock. "The attack was on Xiu and Ying got injured while protecting her. But it's nothing much. Just a knife stab on her knee. That won't kill her. She's been through worse. So don't worry."

Even Xin Xiaoli knew that Ying had been through worse but what really made his heart drop was, "And Xiu? What about her? Did she also get injured?"

Su Feifei took a moment before replying, "She is currently in the operation theatre. I can't say anything about her condition. You'll have to check with the doctors for that."

Xin Xiaoli tried hard to keep his composure as he questioned, "Where?"

Su Feifei directed him towards the operation theatre and watched him leaving with a complicated look in her eyes. While Xiao Li was rushing off, his steps halted before the room where Xiu had been. He looked at the rows of dead bodies and blood scattered around. It chilled his heart.

Seeing him frozen there, Su Feifei touched his shoulder, "Stop looking. None of this blood belongs to Xiu. So, you can relax."

His lips quivered and pinched his thigh to hold back his emotions as he asked, "Does dad know?"

"I called him already," informed Su Feifei. "He'd be here soon."

Xiao Li nodded his head in a daze and ran off again. He needed to find out Xiu's condition. Urgh! Why didn't he come earlier? Why did he go to see Meihui? What if something again happened to his sister? Just the thought was enough to make him feel suffocated.