Imperfect Desires

Feeling stifled, Zhou Jinhai stepped out in fresh air and closed his eyes. Countless indescribable emotions were swirling through his eyes at this moment. He could still recall the despair he felt when he heard about Chen Xiu's death. The last piece of sanity had finally crumbled down along with her last breath. 

Then he really became the mad dog who wanted to bite off everyone and everything!

He had had a sheltered life and was truly not that familiar with the darkness of the world. At least, he was unaware of how far a human's greed, jealousy, or ego could go. All these lessons were given to him by his own mother, his sister, and his wife. 

Since they all didn't hold back, none of them could blame him for being cruel. Until now Zhou Liqiu had no idea that the person who disclosed all of her dirty deeds to Dylan was Zhou Jinhai. Since Dylan was supposedly most precious to her, he struck right where it was meant to hurt like hell.

As for his mother, since she loved to boast about her status, he became the dearest son who disclosed it to the whole world that the supposed Madam Zhou was not even married to Zhou Xichen. Also, when the news broke out that all high and mighty Madam Zhou actually stole someone's husband through underhanded means, she truly became the evilest of the society.

Even after years, Niu Peizhi still couldn't face people like she used to do. Because the scandal about her being the other woman was still the gossip of the circle especially when the supposed other woman was not even favored by the master of the house. She was nothing but a joke now to everyone.

'Isn't this revenge a little too plain?' A distant voice rang in his mind.

'Plain? I'm just getting started,' he had replied to that person.

'Oh? So, what do you plan on doing?' questioned that person.

'I'm gonna follow your advice and let them all gnaw at each other's flesh,' he replied.

'That'd be fun to watch but I won't be here to see.'

'You're leaving?'

'Chen Xiu... I can't distance myself from this crime. One way or another, I also became the reason for her death. I don't think I'll be able to live in this city anymore.' After a pause, that person continued, 'But rest assured, I've got a lot of debt to collect from each and every one of them and they will have to pay. You choose your way, I'll choose mine.'

Back then Zhou Jinhai hadn't stopped that person at all. He didn't even know what that person was intending to do. In fact, he still didn't know what that person's real intention was, what he did know was that he had seen every person involved in Chen Xiu's death suffering over the years. While he tried to hurt them through external means, the other person was using some serious devious means to ruin their mental state.

With a long sigh, he took out a cigarette and continued to twirl it around his fingers. Someone blew secondhand smoke at his face and he heard, "That's injurious to health."

Zhou Jinhai looked up at Xin Suyin and narrowed his eyes at her cigarette as if mocking her. She shrugged in reply, "I'm old enough to lose the will to live. You're still young." As if suddenly enlightened, she added, "Or, is it that you hate the limited days you have?"

"Mother-in-law, how can you joke about your son-in-law's life?" he showed an aggrieved look which she rolled her eyes at.

"I heard your mother is in hospital. How is she?"

Zhou Jinahi's lips curled up, "Shouldn't you know it better?" She raised her brows at him as he went on, "After all, you pushed her where she is. Although it's being said that she only has a sprained ankle, I think you and I both know what you did to her."

Xin Suyin blew out clouds of smoke and chuckled, "Ahh... Once upon a time, you're such a naive little boy. When did you grow up?"

"When you all pushed her to death," he replied with a smile and without any fluctuation in his expressions.

Xin Suyin's face sank as she threw the cigarette butt away and said, "Don't say it like you're innocent. If you had been a little stronger, she would have been saved."

"Yes, I know that," he didn't refute her words at all. "If only I had a bit of strength, I'd even love to exchange my own life for hers." He took a deep breath saying, "But you all caged me like a dog on a leash. Even my bark was harmless to you all. So, I learned to bite."

"Just so you know, I won't let your mother go for playing her cheap methods on her back then," said Xin Suyin. As she had said once, she never played those cheap games but Niu Peizhi was different and she got to know later on how that woman tried to get Chen Xiu raped. That was enough for Xin Suyin to shower wrath on Niu Peizhi in a way that made people's heart freeze in fear. "I'll make purgatory on earth for her!"

Although he didn't know the details, he did know that Xin Suyin had already kept her words. She had indeed made purgatory on earth for his mother. Just as he had said back then, he'd make each of them gnaw at each other. Right now, each of them was trying to kill each other and this game was becoming even more fun day by day. How amusing!

"It's strange to see you trying to avenge Chen Xiu, what is she to you? Or who is she to you?" questioned Zhou Jinhai in curiosity as if he knew nothing.

"That's none of your business," replied the latter. As she turned to leave, she didn't forget to say, "Don't think I'm letting you go. It's just that your karma has already gotten to you. I don't think I'd need to do anything."

Zhou Jinhai crushed the cigarette that he didn't even lit up as he sneered, "Indeed. My karma has already found me." He looked towards the sky and breathed out, "Now, I just wish it leads me to her."