Imperfect Desires

"I don't get why you're resisting so much?" Dylan's stare from this angle and in this position was too much for anyone much less for Cali who had been in love with him for years. "You already said you love me, then why are you trying to run?" Pinching her chin, he wanted to hear her say it. He could feel her hands slowly creeping up his back and it really pleased him.

"Why did you choose to love me in silence?" he questioned while he buried his face in her neck making her arch a little. The way the tip of his nose brushed her neck made her hold onto his shoulder.

"Because in silence, there was no fear of rejection," her voice came out breathy. It really didn't sound like her at all. 

"But isn't it lonely? Loving all by yourself?" he was frowning in confusion but his lips still stuck on the skin of her neck.

An uncontrollable moan escaped from her throat and she bit her lip to hold it. This was really embarrassing for her. But the way her moan ricocheted in his mind made him bite her skin. She held his shoulder even more tightly but didn't dare make a sound. He darted out his tongue to lick where he bit earlier and Cali lost it as she let her moan escape without care.

She could hold in the pain his teeth brought but the pleasing and burning sensation his tongue brought was her breaking point.

Dylan smirked up at her while wiggling his brows like a jerk. Cali placed her hands over his eyes as she answered, "It was lonely. But in that loneliness, no one owned you but me." Dylan was stunned to hear her words. He wanted to remove her hand and look at her face but she refused to do so. "I chose to adore you from a distance not because I was scared of the pain. I was scared that I wasn't the person who could make you happy. I still think that you deserve someone who can make you happy."

Dylan finally peeled her hand off of his eyes and placed his forehead against hers. "Why don't you let me decide whether you can make me happy or not?" His hand was running up and down her arm as he continued, "Do you know how excited I had been knowing that you're in my city? For the first time, you're here. I don't know why it brought so much joy but knowing that you're within my reach brought a strange comfort to me."

Dylan held her body and shifted their position. Obviously, he didn't want to crush her with his weight, so, he sat up allowing her to breathe. 

"Xiu said whenever I talk about you, I smile like a fool. Well, according to her I'm always acting like a fool but when it comes to you I become a lovestruck fool!" he was even smiling like a fool now. No wonder Xiu called him a fool.

Cali couldn't help staring at his face for a long while. He turned to her and held her hand in his own saying, "I know you don't believe me but give me a chance to prove that I'm serious."

"I..." she didn't know what to say to that. In fact, the sincerity in his eyes was enough to make her believe anything he said. But there was a selfish part of her that wanted to see what he was willing to do. What could he possibly do? She was perfectly aware of the fact that he had no experience in pursuing a girl. But she wanted to see what he could do to woo a girl.

Was it too much to ask for?

Was she really being selfish?

Was it wrong to ask for this much?

Dylan pouted adorably at her. "Don't say no, please. I promise that I'll try my best but if you still don't believe me, you can choose to... Walk away." It was difficult to come up with that offer but he had to do it. He seriously didn't want to leave a way out for her but he didn't want to pressure her either. 

Just because she loved him didn't mean he wasn't gonna try his best to show that he was serious about this whole matter. She was more important to him than he thought. And he definitely wasn't willing to ruin the friendship they shared either.

"Do you really think it's a good idea?" she spoke up after calming herself a little. "I mean didn't you say it's tiring to run after a woman? Too much hassle and too much trouble."

Dylan bit his tongue and cursed himself. Yes, he had shared way too much with her. But seriously, if he had the slightest clue about his feelings for her, he'd probably keep his bloody mouth shut! Now, he could only regret it since there was nothing left to do.

"Dazi once told me that when you know that she's the right one, you'd not care about anything else. Besides, a woman needs appreciation and we as gentlemen shouldn't be stingy about it."

Cali's lips curled up slightly. When did he get such a glib tongue?

"And you think I'm the right one?"

Dylan sighed out while his thumbpad was brushing her knuckles softly. "I don't know whether you're the right one or not but I'm certain that you're the only woman I want to be with. You're the only one I'm willing to take this trouble for."

Cali pulled her hand away from his and got up. "Okay, okay. Do whatever you want." She was gonna leave with that offhanded reply but...

He wrapped his arm around her shoulder and held her back. "Is that a yes? You're allowing me to actually go after you?"

Cali hit his hand. "Idiot! I'm allowing you to show me how sincere you are."

Dylan kissed her cheek happily. "Okay! I'll do my best."

"Stop smiling and let me go!" she complained but in a very soft voice. 

"But I want to cuddle you!" he whined.

"We're not dating yet," she reminded him.

Dylan sighed and pulled away. "Well, not for now but soon..." He really left his words hanging leaving it to the imagination. Because if there was one thing he was certain of that was, he was gonna make her belong to him! There was no other way around that!