Imperfect Desires

It wasn't that Xiu had any doubts about Dylan's feelings. But she was still insisting to know what Dylan had to say. He had to have a clear view of what his own feelings were. Blindly trudging through this wasn't gonna end well for anyone.

In the case of Xiu and Darren, they both didn't know what were feelings they had for each other but they knew they had an attraction, a cosmic pull that was binding them together. But it was different for Dylan since Cali had clearly stated her feelings for him. While he was still uncertain about what he felt for her. He was still unable to give a name to his possessiveness, jealousy, and the feelings she evoked in his heart.

Hearing Xiu's question, Dylan was in deep thought. If she asked this question before he certainly wouldn't know what to say. But that kiss had only not only brought about feelings, it also brought clarity to him. A clarity he needed right now.

"I don't think I like her," said Dylan. "Ahhh!" he screamed at how Xiu pushed his head away before pulling his ear.

"What did you say? Are you still playing around or what?!" She was mad. No, she was super mad to hear that reply. She hated indecisive men who couldn't even decide what they wanted.

"Stop it. I meant my feelings for her are more than just like," Dylan tried explaining himself and just as Xiu let his ear go. He rubbed his ear that had been brutally assaulted to the point that it had gone numb. Cruel! She was really cruel!

"More than like?" she repeated his words and since he nodded. She raised her hand again which made him lean backward automatically in response. Xiu rolled her eyes at him and put his head back on her shoulder saying, "Sorry for overreacting. Your words just hit a mark badly. But you tell me more about these feelings of yours."

Dylan didn't ask what she meant since he was still busy brooding over his sore ear. "I honestly don't know what to tell you since I'm not sure what feelings these are. But I can assure you, I have liked her for years but never really dwelled into this. But last night, it was as if everything clicked. As if I suddenly found the missing piece of the puzzle. Her lips against mine felt so right. Her body pressed against mine felt like a breathtaking moment where I forgot to breathe. She tasted..."

"Too many details!" Xiu stopped him before he could go any further than that. She honestly just asked for his feelings and he was baring his soul and heart before her. She couldn't help fondling his thick strands of hair and even pulled a few in the process. "Dumbass! You're supposed to say all that to her. Not to me."

Dylan straightened up with a pouty and sullen look. "How? She... She... Sigh!" He was vexed. "I don't even know how to begin or where to begin. Also, I don't even know what's wrong with her."

"You wouldn't know unless you ask her what's wrong," said Xiu. "Besides, if you ask me I say you both are destined to be."

"Huh? Aren't you little too forward in thinking? We have gotten nowhere and you already think that we are meant to be?"

Xiu nodded her head without even thinking. "She's Calista, you're Dylan. She's C and you're D. You both are just meant to be." Dylan just blinked at her with a straight face. "Get it? C and D always stay together in the alphabet."

"I got it, I just don't find it very amusing," he replied.

"Then I can only blame your poor sense of humor." Xiu would never accept that there was something wrong with her sense of humor. As always, it was his fault for not laughing. Not hers. Not at all! "Anyways, now stop wasting time and go look for her."

Dylan shook his head. "I can't go to find her. She went to meet Dazi. If she told him about what I did, he's gonna murder me."

Xiu frowned at his reaction. "Oi! Why would my baby murder you? He loves you like a brother, of course, he'd be more than happy to see you happy."

Dylan smiled at her which didn't really bring any good feeling to Xiu. "Let me tell you a story, it was back in the summer break of high school. I went out on holiday with Dazi's group of friends and during our stay at the resort, someone made an indecent joke about Cali being with four guys alone. Can you guess what happened?" Xiu didn't react since she knew he wasn't actually looking for an answer. "Dazi put the guy in a hospital. Now, I have told you that my best friend is very possessive about the people he loves. Cali just so happens to be one of his closest friends."

"I still don't get it though. Why would he be upset seeing his best friend dating another best friend? It's something to be happy about, isn't it?"

"On that same holiday, Vier, one of the other friends in the group joked that Cali should just pick one from the group to date. It was Dazi who shut him up saying that none of us deserves her. She's way too good for any of us. Besides, he said if the break up happened, our friendship would be affected so it's better to keep dating out of the friend circle." He heaved a long sigh before adding, "My first real relationship was also with a friend's sister and I got punched for that. I don't want history to repeat itself."

"So? You're not even gonna fight for her?"

"Of course, I am going to. But not before I am sure where we are both standing." He leaned back in his seat as he added, "Because once I'm sure of where we stand, I am willing to let Dazi punch me to death for breaking the deal of not dating a friend. It's a bro code thing you won't understand."

Xiu rubbed her temple saying, "Even if it was a friendship code, I still won't get it since I'm pretty dumb when it comes to these things."

"Haha... At least, you accept that you're dumb."

"Well, not dumber than you, little brother-in-law. You chose to throw a tantrum instead of staying with her to question her straightforwardly what was she all about."

Dylan stopped laughing instantly. "You're playing with fire here."

Xiu opened her mouth to retort when the doorbell caught her attention. But instead of getting up to see who was at the door, she said, "Hey! The doorbell is working just fine then why the hell did you bang my door so hard?!"

Dylan scratched his head sheepishly. "I forgot."

"How can someone forget the bloody doorbell?"

"If that someone is me, it's possible."

"Forget it. It's so true that I can't even argue with that."

Hearing how the doorbell rang again, Dylan questioned, "Aren't you gonna see who it is?"

"I don't want to," was her response but she still dragged her body off the couch and with heavy steps made her way to the door. She yanked the door open and a smile instantly bloomed on her face seeing the guest at her door.