I Don't Want To Be Loved

Chapter 177: Pregnancy

Finding out that Mrs. Cessley was talking about the rumors of her falling out with Igor, Rihannan couldn’t help but smile a bitter smile.

Noticing the slight change in Rihanna’s aura, Mrs. Cessley hurriedly continued her words to change the topic at hand.

“Of course, now that it’s completely solved, there’s no need to worry about it from now on.”

And just as Mrs. Cessley said, the rumors of the queen falling out with the king that spread outside the palace visibly died down. The passive half-threat she gave to those noblewomen during the tea party a few weeks ago helped quell the rumors. But most of all, it was thanks to Igor officially warning the nobility to cease all talks in regards to those rumors.

Since Igor personally gave out his cold warnings to others, the noblemen and noblewomen immediately ceased the strings of spreading the rumors any further lest they wish to receive the king’s wrath.

It, too, officially cemented the thought that of them falling out as false if the king himself grew mercilessly angry.

As for Rihannan, she was puzzled. She couldn’t understand his thoughts and actions.

In the past, when similar rumors flew about in regards to his fiery hot affair with Leticia, Igor remained tight-lipped and watched it happen. Sometimes, he looked as if he was encouraging the rumors to shower the entire kingdom in flames.

He’d often sit together with Leticia, too, in public spaces and have a friendly chat or a walk together, showing off their relationship at every chance possible.

And worst of all… he knew his actions hurt Rihannan, broke her heart, and squeezed every last drop of it. He never once apologized for his action nor did he care to give an explanation.

She was at her wits end back then. Every last bits rays of hope were gone. Dimitri’s little visit managed to re-ignite any sense of happiness she had left, but… it only angered Igor to the oblivion. After that, he never set foot inside the Queen’s Palace again.

Everyone thought, even her, that he spent all his time with Leticia.

But suddenly, his seemingly everlasting affair with Leticia ended once the truth that Rihannan had conceived his child was made known. His once cold disposition towards her was gone. He smiled freely and hugged her tightly.

He was at the highest peak of his life it seemed like.

But to Rihannan, she was both happy and despaired while in his arms. It only further cemented the thought that he never loved her, nor cared for her. Bearing him a child was her only worth.

If this was the case and the life she would live, it was fine as well, Rihannan thought. She knew he’ll love and care for their unborn child far more than her father ever did to her.

If he vowed to cut off his association with Leticia and dedicate his life to the life in her belly, she was willing to bury all their painful past.

If she hadn’t seen that moment in his office… then she might have been willing to live a life of ignorance for the rest of her life.

Rihannan let out a small sigh.

What had caused a drastic change in him in this life? Surely the change in the future shouldn’t change the characters of everyone so drastically?

…So… why was he different?

Why was he willing to put himself forward to quell the damaging rumors? It wasn’t like she was pregnant, so…

Pregnancy.

The moment the word came to mind, the truth hit her like a hammering thunder.

The reason why her body was feeling different than the usual… the reason why…

Her menstrual cycle usually skipped a month from time to time, but it had never skipped several months in a row like this. And to top it off, she started liking aromatic food that she once despised… it was the same back then and it was the same now.

“…My Queen, are you all right?”

Hearing Mrs. Cessley’s worried voice, Rihannan quickly returned to reality and fixed her expression.

“I was thinking about something for a moment. Mrs. Cessley, I’m okay now. You should go back for today. I wish to rest a bit earlier.”

Mrs. Cessley nodded her head in understanding.

“You’ve been working hard on the bill, after all. Please have a good rest, My Queen.”

After Mrs. Cessley left, Rihannan placed her hand on her stomach.

There was no sign or indication that she was conceiving and she hadn’t been informed by a doctor. But… but she knew right away that she had once more bore a new life within her body.

Drip…

A teardrop fell, landing on the back of her hand. At this moment, she felt both the happiest joy in life, mixed with abysmal despair.

How odd is fate?

She felt the same feeling now… like that certain moment in the past.