His Rui

Xi Ying felt unwilling to go to Xi Manor now. His heart was feeling so heavy.

She must have left. Why would she not?

He never gave her any reason to stay in the past four years.

It felt surreal when he thought that he really lives the past four years without seeing her when she was in his manor.

Now living without her seemed to kill him.

A part of his heart still wished for her to stay in Xi Manor selfishly.

He slowly rode his horse to Xi Manor. It was dark when he reached Xi Manor. Getting down from his horse, he stepped inside Xi Manor and walked towards the Plum Courtyard.

The maids and servants who saw him lowered their heads and greeted him.

The Plum Courtyard was silent and lit with red lamps reducing its desolateness from the manor. His steps halted when he was just outside Li Rui's sleeping room. 

His heartbeat sped. Seeing the closed doors, he didn't seem to gather to courage to open them. His eyes were red as he felt moistness inside them.

Xi Ying had never cried in his life till he could remember. Not even when he had lost his Father and his Mother. He was sad but he never cried.

There was only one person in this whole world for whom he had shed tears.

Li Rui. His Wangfei.

It was only Rui who could move his heart and made him feel so many emotions. The same Rui could be far away from him now.

He should not have let her go, Xi Ying thought at this moment.

At this moment, the closed doors suddenly opened.

At this moment, everything seemed to stop for Xi Ying as he looked at the person in front of him in disbelief. 

"Rui " An inaudible whisper escaped from his lips.

When her calm black eyes met his own, he suddenly took a step forward and embraced her in his arms tightly.

"Rui"

He murmured again and again burying his head in her hair. Her sweet scent invaded his senses.

She was really here. With him.

Still holding her in his arms, he stepped back a little and kissed her forehead many times.

When he felt her pushing his chest a little, he immediately left her and calmed down his waving emotions.

"You…" didn't leave. He wanted to say but what came out of his mouth was

"You have not slept yet."

Li Rui took a long look at his red eyes and said calmly.

"This Wangfei was feeling a little thirsty so came out to have some water."

Xi Ying frowned. He really needs to change all the maids in Xi Manor.

He saw the empty jug in her hands and took it from her. Walking towards the table place in the large hall, he filled the jug.

Li Rui looked at his back. She could guess what he was trying to say.

It was only after a moment he had left the Plum Courtyard, everything suddenly clicked in her mind. Despite knowing that she was planning to leave last night, he left Xi Ling with her.

Was it not giving her a chance to leave?

She was ready to leave. But she didn't leave.

She would have if suddenly after waking up the first thing that Xi Ling had asked for was not his father. Or when she talked to Xi Ling he would not have told her everything about his father.

'Father plays this game with me. Mother do you want to play with me?

Father read this book to me last time. Mother, what kind of books do you like?'

From the beginning, till he slept again, his every sentence had 'Father' in it. Xi Ling loved his father a lot.

Would he really be happy with her if she took him away from his father?

Her heart was in pain but she had to accept the truth. After all just how much time she had spent with her child.

And somewhere she remembered a few words.

'I will erase all of your worries slowly.'

So she didn't leave.

On the other hand, while filling the jug Xi Ying could not control himself and turned to look at her once more.

She was standing at the same place waiting for him. His heart felt relieved.

He took a cup of water and walked towards her. He could not stop looking at her at all as she drank the water sip by sip.

After finishing the water, Li Rui looked at him.

She wanted to ask him what happened inside the Imperial Palace. Did the Emperor ask him to suppress those soldiers? If he did, then what was he going to do?

But she couldn't. Why would he tell her about the Imperial Palace's matters?

However, she suddenly heard him saying

"Don't worry, everything is fine. His Majesty will not announce anything for the time being."

Her hanging heart calmed down and Li Rui nodded her head. Although it was not much information, it was enough.

She didn't say anything and turned around to go inside the room.

Following her, Xi Ying also entered the room. He saw Xi Ling sleeping on her bed.

When Li Rui saw him inside the room, she paused for a moment while putting the jug on the bedside table.

'Will he sleep here like yesternight?"

She felt uncomfortable. She wanted to ask him to sleep somewhere else but couldn't open her mouth.

His actions were confusing her.

It was his plan to gather all the soldiers to fight for Li Clan but why would he suddenly do this? Why would he suddenly try to save Li Clan?

She was just afraid that it was just his other plan. In trying to come out of one trap, Li Clan would fall into another trap because of her.

It was very difficult to trust someone for her; especially him.

A deep voice fell in her ears

"Don't think too much. Sleep."

She saw him standing by her side and pushing her shoulder lightly to lie down. As her head hit the pillow, she felt him covering her body with a blanket. After that, he turned around and walked towards the ….

Her eyes flickered with surprise when she saw him lying down on the only couch inside the room. After a moment, she turned towards Xi Ling and hugged her son in his arms.

Sleeping on the couch, Xi Ying turned to glance at his Wangfei. He smiled seeing her hugging her son. As much as he wished to hug her just like that in his arms, he knew he can't.

Before in his impulsiveness, he had done many things wrong.

If she was unwilling, then he would not touch her.

She was here with him in front of his eyes.

It was enough. He doesn't wish for anything else.