His Rui

Lu Jianye went back to Lu Manor somehow.

When he entered, he didn't even respond to his servant's greetings and silently went to his chambers.

"Brother Jianye"

On his way to his chambers, he heard a voice calling his name and he raised his head to look at its owner.

It was Yu Wei. Her eyes were filled with tears and many other emotions.

Lu Jianye felt very complex inside his heart seeing Yu Wei.

"Brother Jianye, I had never wanted to disturb your meeting with her. I just …I just went there to pray for both of us."

It was Mother Lu who had advised Yu Wei to go to the isolated temple with her maids and pray there. However, when had the naïve Yu Wei thought that she will see Lu Jianye there with Li Na.

"It's alright."

Lu Jianye didn't even know what else he could say to Yu Wei after he heard that she had gone there to pray for him.

He couldn't be rude and angry to the person who was praying for his well-being. He was not that unreasonable.

Yu Wei felt relieved after hearing this while Lu Jianye decided to leave from there. However, suddenly a servant came running inside and gave a letter to Lu Jianye.

"The letter is sent from Li Manor."

The servant told Lu Jianye and Lu Jianye looked at the letter for a few moments before he raised his hand to take it from the servant's hands.

With an emotionless face, he opened the letter. A big part of his heart and mind was thinking that it must be the letter from Li Qiang who was now not ready to marry his daughter to him.

The thought made Lu Jianye's heart hurt. He liked Li Na very much but after seeing whatever happened in front of Li Manor today, he was not that sure.

He was left very hurt by her actions.

Still, he didn't want to break this marriage. After all, he had worked hard so much to make his father agree for this marriage.

He didn't want everything to go in vain. He wanted to find some reasons that made Li Na do so.

With a very cold heart, he opened the letter and started to read it silently.

A few moments later, Lu Jianye finished reading the letter. His eyes that were blank before were now filled with pain, regret, and joy. 

The letter was sent to him was Li Na's mother, Li Rong.

Through this letter, she was telling him as to why Li Na did that today.

Li Na is afraid of being wronged after this marriage and that's why she thinks that it would be better to marry Xi Ying because Xi Ying's main wife was her own sister who would never wrong her.

It was her own selfishness of living an easy life in the future because she had already suffered a lot. Now she was very afraid of marrying Lu Jianye because she thinks that he will also forget after he took Yu Wei as his concubine and there would be no one in Lu Manor who will look out for her.

The fear made her do that stupid thing.

The letter also said that the marriage was already fixed on the next week because Minister Li was very angry at Li Na for whatever she did.

Lu Jianye's heart eased slightly after he finished reading the letter. The reasons Li Rong gave for Li Na's behavior felt reasonable to him. 

His eyes then went to Yu Wei who was looking towards the letter in his hands with anticipation. Lu Jianye's eyes went cold.

He suddenly came to realize that was not it because of Yu Wei, Li Na felt so insecure.

If Yu Wei would not have been there in the first place, Li Na would have never felt so.

"Brother Jianye, is everything alright?"

Yu Wei asked curiously. She would not be lying if she said that a large part of her heart was wishing that Li Qiang had canceled this marriage.

However, Lu Jianye could read her emotions like a book at this moment regardless of how much she tried to hide. 

Li Na was very capable of hiding them but Yu Wei was not.

"Nothing you should know."

He said to her coldly.

With one last cold glance at Yu Wei who was left startled by her sudden cold behavior, Lu Jianye walked towards his courtyard.

On the other hand, inside her courtyard, Li Na was lying on her bed.

Her shoulders shook every few seconds as made sounds that indicated that she was crying. Sitting on the edge of the bed, Li Rong had a distressed face.

"Li Na, stop crying, my daughter." 

Li Rong had been very angry at her daughter for so many days but today she couldn't help but worry about her. Now seeing that she was crying so hard and she was going to marry a man who was going to have a concubine, she could no longer stay angry at her.

"Li Na, Lu Jianye seems to be a sincere man. Mother feels that you would not be wronged in Lu Manor as long as he favors you." 

Li Na suddenly got up from the bed. Her eyes were red as she looked at her mother and said

"Mother, it doesn't matter. Everyone will laugh at me. That Li Rui got such a capable man as her husband. Though Lord Xi had concubines in Xi Manor before, almost the whole Imperial City knows that he never touched them. No one out of them bore any child for him. It was always Li Rui. And now he doesn't even have a single concubine in his Manor."

Tears of contempt and envy slid out of Li Na's eyes as she continued   

"Mother, why can she get so good but I …I had to adjust with everything? She was drugged but she still got a man like Prime Minister Xi and here I …"

Li Rong couldn't stop her tears after hearing her daughter's words. She didn't have anything to say. She just hugged her daughter to her chest and said softly.

"It's alright, my child. Lu Jianye loves you. Mother will talk to him about this matter, alright? However, you can't make him angry by doing what you have done today. Your father is adamant to marry you to him. What if he also started to dislike you? What will you do then?"

Li Na nodded her head reluctantly as she left her mother's embrace. 

Her heart was still filled with envy as she continued to compare Lu Jianye and Xi Ying.

She didn't think that Li Rui had also suffered in Li Manor for four years. She didn't think that it was because of her own stupid acts, she had been found in such a compromising situation during the banquet.

Sometimes, self-pity could also become the reason for one's destruction.