His Rui

A few moments later, the rays of sunlight were falling inside the cave lightening the whole cave.

Sitting on the stone bed, Li Rui seemed to be lost in her own thoughts with her head lowered. Both of her hands were placed on her laps as she twisted her fingers as if she was in some great trouble.

Standing at the entrance of the cave, Xi Ying was leaning against the stone wall and staring at his wife without blinking his eyes.

Actually, after waking up in the morning, he has done only one thing when he was not doing anything else. And that anything else included removing all the bushes, trees, and leaves from the entrance of the cave that had covered the entrance because An Ping did it intentionally or because of the heavy rain from last night. 

He had actually hugged Li Rui tightly in his arms after An Ping had left not being able to get away from her even for a moment.

Because every moment she was out of his sight, he would feel something empty inside his chest.

Xi Ying knew the reason behind this emptiness.

He could also feel the change in his emotions.

Now he felt more strong, confident, and ruthless …as if the Xi Ying, who had become ruthless even to himself after losing Li Rui, from his dream, had merged with him.

The heart inside his chest …it only felt full-on seeing Li Rui. It only went soft at the sight of his wife.

But he couldn't hold her for long as he felt that her body was too cold when he hugged her. The rain in cold weather had only made the cave colder after a cold night.

He was afraid that Li Rui will get sick so he immediately removed all the trees from the entrance of the cave and let the sunlight enter.

Fortunately, the sun rays were falling on the bed so he made Li Rui sit on the bed and he himself stood at the entrance guarding the cave.

Now standing there, he again could not stop himself from staring at his quiet wife as she twisted her fingers on her lap.

Amusement flashed through Xi Ying's eyes as he felt the restlessness that he had been feeling inside his heart since waking up vanishing a little bit.

It was rare to see Li Rui behave like an ordinary woman. Just like now…seeing how she was twisting her fingers, It felt as if she was feeling nervous about something.

Thinking this, Xi Ying suddenly wondered and was very curious to know just what was going on inside her head.

He was about to open his mouth to say something when he suddenly hear a sound and got alert. His hand was ready to lift his sword when he heard a whisper and immediately relaxed 

"Master, it's me."

Soon An Ping was standing in front of him with different kind of fruits in his hand.

"Master, this is for My Lady."

Xi Ying nodded his head.

Approval flashed through his eyes when he saw that all the fruits were washed nicely.

He took a few from An Ping and then went inside the cave. However, when was about to leave he turned around again and asked An Ping to cover the entrance of the cave again. 

Only after he was sure that the entrance was hidden properly he went further inside the cave.

"Here, I will peel some for you. Have them and then we will go back to Xi Manor."

Xi Ying said gently to his wife as he sat down beside her.

However, it was only at that moment he realized that the fruits needed to be peeled and he had only his dagger for that work but he didn't wish to use it.

Xi Ying glanced at the dagger in his hands.

His dagger…it had the blood of so many people on it.

How could he use it to peel the fruits that were to be eaten by his pregnant wife?

Even the thought didn't sit well with him.

Li Rui who was sitting beside him looked at the deep frown on his forehead as he looked at the dagger in his hand coldly and then at the fruit in his other hand.   

She perhaps understood what he was thinking and sighed softly.

Different from the blankness her eyes had usually, this moment they held gentleness as she took the fruit from Xi Ying's hands and whispered calmly

"It doesn't matter. My hands are not white, Xi Ying."

Then she took out her own dagger from her sleeve and started to peel the apple carefully.

Xi Ying stared at his wife as she very calmly peeled the apple with her dagger. Her every movement was very calculated as if she had done this quite a lot of times.

'She looked delicate and fragile but she was very strong.'

The thought was finally instilled in his mind as Xi Ying looked at his calm wife and remembered how ruthlessly she had killed that shadow guard because she wanted to save Li Hua.

She was not as fragile as he had thought her to be.

And because he thought so he tried to hide many things from her thinking that he was protecting her…thinking that she won't be able to manage it.

Was he at fault?

After seeing Li Rui crying silently inside that dark room that night, Xi Ying had promised himself that he would not let her face any kind of trouble alone when he had got his body back.

Every trouble that targeted Li Rui first would have to face him.

However, in his overprotectiveness, he didn't think that hiding so many things from his wife would create so many misunderstandings in their already fragile relationship.

He should not have hidden anything from Li Rui.

He did and hence gave others to create the seed of doubt inside Li Rui's heart.

It was not Li Rui who was at fault for not trusting him.

It always has been him who took wrong decisions and expected her to follow him just because he was her husband who had now suddenly changed and wanted to protect Li Clan.

Remembering the dream from last night, Xi Ying suddenly wondered if he was ever qualified to even blame Li Rui for not trusting him.