Novel Full Chapter 194 - Lose Control
Chapter 194 Lose Control
Gu Luan open the drawer. He takes out a box of cigarette, which he has put there for a long time. He takes out a cigarette and lights it. However, he doesn’t smoke it at once.
Why does he feel so painful?
What he did is to make Xia Ning leave Yi Yunrui. Why when he sees her turn pale, he feels his heart aching and he has the desire to give himself some slaps?
The feeling…is abnormal.
At the time, he hears some rhythmed knocks at the door. Wan Liqing is asking, “Director, may I come in?”
“Come in.” Gu Luan responds. He puts the cigarette in the ashtray.
Wan Liqing opens the door and walks in. She wears a fit uniform and looks very capable and concise.
Wan Liqing is going to speak, when she smells the smoke in the office. She can’t help frowning. She looks around for the smoke and stares at the ashtray.
Does she make a mistake? Does Gu Luan smoke?
Aware of the surprise in Wan Liqing’s eyes, Gu Luan smiles, “I don’t smoke. I just look at it.”
Wan Liqing pauses for a while and she collects herself, “Do you?”
Even if he doesn’t smoke, it is weird to see him have a lit cigarette!
Gu Luan slightly holds out his hand, “Director Wan, sit down, please.”
Wan Liqing mildly twitches her lips and nods. She sits down in front of Gu Luan.
From when did Gu Luan begin to treat her so officially? Every time, when she hears the formal greetings from him, she feels her heart aching.
Wan Liqing sees the empty coffee cup in front of Gu Luan. She asks, “Director, do you want me to make some coffee for you?”
Gu Luan pushes the coffee cup forwards, “I have had enough for today. Director Wan, what are you coming here for?”
Wan Liqing gives a sigh in her heart, “Luan, can’t we not be so official in private?”
Gu Luan slightly pauses, “OK. I will try.”
Wan Liqing curls her lips. She lightly clenches her fists. He will only try?
Gu Luan can definitely do it.
He can’t have a sudden change? Or, he is not willing to change?
“Well. I saw Director Xia leave just now. She doesn’t look well. So, I want to check on you. Director, you lit the cigarette. Did anything happen?”
Gu Luan darkens his eyes, “Director Wan, thank you for your concern. Nothing happened.”
Gu Luan responds briefly and shortly. He is obviously unwilling to have her interfere. Wan Liqing feels a little embarrassed. She smiles, “Luan, please don’t blame me for asking too much. I have known you for so long a time. No matter as a colleague in the company or a friend, I am concerned with you. I don’t have other meanings.”
Gu Luan looks at her with his deep eyes. Then, he slightly lifts his lips, “I know you are concerned with me. Thank you. But again, I am fine. Ning is fine, too. Is that clear?”
Wan Liqing feels her heart stuck. What Gu Luan says sounds kind, while in fact, it keeps her away from him. She bursts into anger, “Luan, what do you mean? Do you want to keep a distance from me? If you really don’t want me to show up in front of you, you may tell me frankly! Do you know the way you speak to me is very hurtful?”
Gu Luan pauses. He takes a breath. He strokes his forehead with his long fingers, “Is it? Maybe my emotion is not stable today. I am sorry.”
Not knowing why, as long as it is about Xia Ning, he tends to be unexplainably irritable.
Maybe, this emotion is visible on him, while he himself is not aware of it.
If it is true, that is…risky.
“Luan, do you really like Xia Ning?” Though Wan Liqing tries hard to deny this fact in her heart and she knows that Gu Luan doesn’t like the question, she can’t control herself. She can’t control her jealousy!
Gu Luan frowns, “Director Wan, do you know what you are asking?”
“Surely I do!” Wan Liqing grits her teeth. Anyway, she has spoken out the question. She will continue, “I am quite worried about you. You care about Xia Ning. Almost all the people in the company are guessing about that. Luan, what do you want to do? Xia Ning is married.”
Gu Luan slightly clenches his fists. He is furious inside, but he tries hard to restrain himself from losing control, “Director Wan, do you come here today to remind me or to warn me?”
“No, I don’t.” Wan Liqing is sad about Gu Luan’s misunderstanding. Tears blur her eyes. She says, “I just hope that you know what you are doing now. In the past, I was reckless and didn’t cherish what I had. I have learned my lessons. I am now in front of you. If you still can’t forgive me, you may vent your anger to me! Don’t torment yourself with other people! You want to torture yourself with an impossible relation. Are you doing this to enrage me, or…”
“Is this torment? Is this torture?” Wan Liqing’s last words are just like blasting fuses. They light the anger inside Gu Luan, “Wan Liqing, please collect your self-righteousness. Let me tell you clearly now. From the beginning to the end, I have never loved you at all! Is that clear enough?”
Wan Liqing is shocked blankly. She can’t believe it. She is frozen…
“What…what did you say?” After quite a while, Wan Liqing collects herself. Her brain is full of the scenes of her being with Gu Luan. Comparing that with what he said, she feels herself at the edge of collapse at the moment!
Never loved her at all?
Then, what did those…happened in the past mean?
“I…” In Wan Liqing’s eyes, Gu Luan sees himself, who loses control and looks like an animal. In an instant, Gu Luan finds his brain blank!
What did he say?
Xia Ning takes a mouthful of coffee. She takes a deep breath to stop the tears in her eyes.
She is trying hard to digest and get over what Gu Luan said to her just now.
She knows what Gu Luan feels about her. Therefore, what Gu Luan says may be all rootless.
She knows that she should not care about that or believe that.
But, damn it. She keeps what Gu Luan said in her mind.
At the moment, she is not in the mood to work. Once she closes her eyes, she will see two of herself. One is an angel, while the other is a devil. The angel tells her to be optimistic, while the devil reminds her of self-respect.
However, undeniably, whatever Yi Yunrui may do, she is not capable enough to interfere!
And she feels depressed. Wherever she may go, whatever she may do, she may be under the supervision of Yi Yunrui…
It is unfair. It is really unfair!
Suddenly, she feels some kind of chemical element inside her body drops rapidly. All of a sudden, she turns pale. Sweats come out from her forehead. It is getting harder and harder for her to breathe…
She is having the glucopenia!
Shit. How can she forget that she hasn’t had any breakfast today!
When she woke up in the morning. She went to the kitchen as usual, but found that Commander Yi had prepared nothing today.
Xia Ning’s forehead is giving out cold sweats. She breathes heavily. She trembles her hand to open the drawer and sees the last block of chocolate there. It is precious to her.
Xia Ning hurriedly open the chocolate and bites a mouthful and another. The chocolate goes down to her stomach. She can feel warmth and strength returning to her body gradually.
Several minutes later, when she almost returns to normal, Xia Ning gives a long sigh.
She takes up the handset of the phone and dials Gu Ruoruo’s number, “Ruoruo, please send me a cup of sweet milk, the sweeter, the better. No coffee. Thank you.”
She hangs up and looks out through the window at the crowded buildings. Xia Ning feels sad.
What is Yi Yunrui telling her by what he did these days?
Is he reminding her that something is under secret change?
After a while, Gu Ruoruo puts the sweet milk on her desk. Li Baoer comes with Gu Ruoruo.
“Wow, Director Xia, are you OK? You look as if you have just fought with a monster. What happened?” Li Baoer cries. She is surprised to see Xia Ning lying on the sofa.
Xia Ning shakes her head. She is still weak, “Nothing. I just have the glucopenia.”
“Glucopenia? Do you bring any snacks with you? I have some candies. Well. Doesn’t Director Yi always buy a lot of snacks for you? Why did you still have the glucopenia?”
Li Baoer throws the questions, which hit at Xia Ning’s heart. Xia Ning can hardly breathe.
Is she having the glucopenia again?
Xia Ning at once takes up the sweet milk and drink a mouthful of it.
Vaguely, Li Baoer feels something unusual. She smartly changes the topic, “Wait for me a moment. I go to get some candies for you.”
Li Baoer turns to leave. She comes back within a minute with all kinds of candies in her hands. Some are soft and some are hard. She puts them all on Xia Ning’s desk.
Seeing the colorful candies on the desk, Xia Ning smiles, “From when does Miss Li also become fond of snacks?”
Li Baoer rolls her eyes at Xia Ning, “Don’t talk about jokes now. Eat some. Talk to me after you return to normal.”
Xia Ning nods. She trembles her hands to unpack the candies and has around ten before she stops.
Li Baoer shakes her head, “Ning, you have so many snacks at home. Why don’t you put some at your office? Look at you. It is lucky that it is me. You may scare others who see you.”
Xia Ning feels a little embarrassed, “Hum. I know. It is my fault. I was too greedy. I have eaten up the snacks in my drawer and haven’t bought new ones.”
“Keep it in mind.” Li Baoer closes the door. She sits down in front of Xia Ning, “Ning, as to the issue about my future husband Honey Zhongheng, I have thought it over carefully. I decide to trust him.”
Xia Ning twitches her lips when she hears Li Baoer says “Honey Zhongheng”, “Hum. You should trust him.”
Li Baoer blinks her eyes, “Why don’t you ask me about the reasons?”
“…” Xia Ning is kind of speechless, “Well. Tell me the reasons.”
“Reasons may be simple. I may tell you, but I am afraid that you will be sad. One moment, you have to promise me that you won’t be sad.”
Xia Ning feels confused with Li Baoer’s irrational requirement, “Fine. I promise. I am not going to be sad. Miss Li, you may speak.”