Go to Hell, White Lotus

[48. Moon finally updated]

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: Great God Great God Great God!!! I heard from Yun Yu that White Lotus spend the night at your place yesterday?!!!!

[Private Chat] Great God: Do you have any problems with that?

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: ….This old man is feeling sorrow and crying a river of tears

[Private chat] Great God: Congratulations

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: Did you guys □?

[Private Chat] Great God: Please watch your words

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: Does it hurt when Bai Lian Hua goes to the bathroom?

[Private Chat] Great God: You should ask him.

……..

Song Qingge held his forehead as he watched the dialogue appear on the computer screen while deep inside, he couldn’t help but feel a little more relaxed.

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: I’m too shy and can’t ask! You should know that I have always been pure.

[Private Chat] Great God: Actually he was sitting beside me just then

After a few minutes……..

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: Ahahahaha Good afternoon Great God! My account seems to have just been hacked! I only just got it back!

[Private Chat] Great God: Retard

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: ……

[Private Chat]: Half Crazy Smile: Great God you know? I have always thought that you would be the one who would be pushed down. Although you are relatively cold and may occasionally explode, but overall you look like a normal man. But to think that you created a female account to play and that you didn’t make the most of yesterday’s opportunity…Don’t tell me you were waiting for Bai Lian Hua to take the initiative?! He is a straight man. Even if he watches GV, you can’t change the fact that he is straight! There are lots of half-bent people who, because they started dating a girl, went down the other path….

[Private Chat] Great God: He is already down the path of wanting a girlfriend

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: ??

[Private Chat] Great God: And even convinced me to jump off a cliff

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: !!!

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: What happened?

[System Prompt: Player [Great God] has blacklisted you]

[Private Chat] Half Crazy Smile: Hey!

[System Prompt: Sorry, you are not on the other player’s friends list and cannot initiate a conversation.]

[Private chat] Half Crazy Smile: ……F*ck your lotus!

[System Prompt: Sorry, you are not on the other player’s friends list and cannot initiate a conversation.]

Bai Lian Hua’s mind is currently in a mess and he couldn’t help but feel frustrated. Returning to the dormitory, he still couldn’t find his keys so he contacted his teacher. Only after about half an hour, they managed to open the door. Bai Lian Hua looked at his computer sitting on his desk and for the first time he had the urge to free himself from the internet.

What on earth happened? This matter started when they were having lunch…..

“Do you want to wash up first?” Song Qingge asked him, “The toothbrush is new and you ‘re fine with using my face towel right?”

Bai Lian Hua nodded and walked into the bathroom. The person he saw through the mirror looked awful probably because he slept late yesterday. It couldn’t be helped, some people are born like this and look like dead ancestors after staying up for one night.

After washing up, he went out and saw that Song Qingge had already prepared the food and placed them on the table. Bai Lian Hua sweeped his eyes across the dishes; they were all very common home cooked dishes: tomato and egg, cucumber and meat, and a soup. Bai Lian Hua looked at Song Qingge with a shocked expression who faintly said, “I got to the markets a little late.”

“No,” Bai Lian Hua slowly shook his head. “ I was shocked that you can actually cook……..” And to be able to cook so well. This made Bai Lian Hua who almost blew up the kitchen three times feel extremely worthless.

Song Qingge froze for a moment before he raised his head and smiled: “It’s too embarrassing if I can’t cook at this age.” …………He was the one that was embarrassing. Song Qingge, please don’t attack his delicate heart anymore….

Those from the Z country seem to love to eat and chat, especially Bai Lian Hua’s family. Every time you have lunch, it meant that it was time for him to endure a load of scolding over the dinner table…..Although it might sound like a tragedy, it in fact wasn’t a tragedy and actually a life tragedy. However it wasn’t the case for Song Qingge. While eating, he followed the principle of not talking while eating and pretty much had “I can’t talk” plastered to his face….Several times, Bai Lian Hua wanted to say something but eventually kept his mouth closed.

After lunch, he followed Song Qingge and helped bring the dishes to the kitchen. Song Qingge reached across, took the plates and threw them inside the dishwasher.

“Song Qingge, is you family also quiet like you?” Bai Lian Hua looked at Song Qingge who had not uttered a word and asked.

Song Qingge went silent for half a minute. He turned his head to look at Bai Lian Hua for about 10 seconds before he said: “No, my brother is very talkative and my father is very noisy. Those two can talk for thirty minutes straight without anyone interrupting.” Bai Lian Hua mulled over it for a while….If he were to grow up in that kind of environment, he probably would have also become as quiet as Song brother.

“Song Qingge, have you ever had a girlfriend?” Bai Lian Hua asked as he tried to find a general topic to talk about.

Song Qingge’s ears went red. After a long pause he replied with a very small voice: “You are my first love.”

Unfortunately, although his voice was small, Bai Lian Hua still heard it….the two faced each other and could feel their faces getting warmer. This was especially the case for Song Qingge. He had probably not blushed in his 18 years of life and now that he was blushing for the first time, it was out of control……..

Bai Lian Hua’s lips moved as if he wanted to say something but it looks like the last topic had developed in a strange direction: “I started dating girls when I was in third year of junior high school….It was with a girl who was older than me by two years. Every time she bought me popsicles, I let her kiss me. After she graduated from high school, we broke up….”

Song Qingge’s actions stiffed but he didn’t interrupt and continued to listen.

“I went to high school and I’m not trying to boast but there were a few girls who were pining after me. They helped me do my homework and sent me Christmas cards. Although I wasn’t as tall as the other boys in the class, according to the girls, I was the one who looked the most pleasing to the eye….” As Bai Lian Hua remembered something, he laughed, “By dad said that with my looks, I wouldn’t be able to find a wife but when he saw me walking down the street with another girl when I was in high school he was so pissed….”

Bai Lian Hua looked at Song Qingge’s expression and lightly pressed his lips together before his eyes moved to gaze out the window as he fell deep in thought.“…….I think, I should not like men.” Even though, after all these years, he had never fallen in love with a woman.

It was very quiet. Song Qingge turned and indifferently looked at him. Yes, it was indifference. Bai Lian Hua could faintly sense that Song Qingge was angry.

In fact, Song Qingge was indeed angry. The usually calm and blank expression gradually twisted into a distorted smile.

“Bai Lian Hua, I don’t want to see you right now.” Song Qingge suddenly said. Bai Lian Hua looked at him but couldn’t say any of the words that was circulating around in his mind.

“Go.” It was a simple and powerful word. Like a hammer, it directly crushed Bai Lian Hua’s heart.

And so he fled.

Song Qingge didn’t dare to say who it was that fled. Bai Lian Hua didn’t want to admit that he could fall in love with another man just like Song Qingge didn’t want to admit that Bai Lian Hua had never considered the idea of being together with another man.

Bai Lian Hua returned to his dormitory from Song Qingge’s home, climbed into his bed and covered his face with his blanket. With his vision covered in darkness, he convinced himself not think about what had happened at Song Qingge’s place but he couldn’t help but think back to Song Qingge’s words.

As if he had realised something, Bai Lian Hua writhed around in bed frustrated and made his hair even more of a mess. You mom….he is not gay! He is a normal man! Just because he still doesn’t know the taste of meat even as a third year college student, he is still a normal man! Well and truly! How can he like another man? Not to mention, Bai Lian Hua didn’t dare think about his dad’s reaction if he found out about this incident. It would be highly likely that he would directly sever their father-son relationship!

It’s all because of Song Qingge causing him to become abnormal! He self-destructively thought this as he threw his blanket onto the floor before proceeding to pick it up again. Hesitating for a very long time, he couldn’t pull up the courage click onto the game icon,

Don’t want to move. Don’t want to play game. Don’t want to do homework. Bai Lian Hua felt as if he was going through menopause….but he was still young. Apart from the recent happenings that had ruined his mood, shouldn’t he be like those cartoon protagonists who can stand up and continue to be happy no matter how many times they were defeated? But life is not a game or an animation; the same applies to love.

Just as Bai Lian Hua felt bored, the door to his dormitory room opened. Bai Lian Hua jumped and turned around to check. It was Li Bei who had ran off thousands of miles away in search for true love who had returned. But looking at his dark expression like a pot of charcoal, Li Bei classmate didn’t seem to be in a good mood.

“There are still a few days until military training….” Bai Lian Hua looked at Li Bei’s face and swallowed his words back, “You’re back?”. Say, why did you come back so early?

Li Bei placed his luggage against the wall and sat down on his bed.

“What’s wrong?” From Li Bei’s actions, it looks like his thousand mile journey to meet his better half did not have a good outcome.

“Don’t talk about it.” Li Bei waved his hand helplessly. “I just got off the bus and am still a little dizzy. I want to sleep first. Don’t disturb me. Turn your game sounds off otherwise I will loudly watch “Angel’s Love” tonight.” This powerful threat immediately prompted Bai Lian Hua to shut his mouth and turn off his speaker.

After an afternoon of posting, surfing Weibo and playing 4399 games, the afternoon had unknowingly passed. At three past five in the afternoon, Li Bei woke up.

“What time is it?” The sky was still bright and time could not be accurately guessed based on this. “Five o’clock.”

Li Bei uttered an “Oh” and didn’t speak. Bai Lian Hua glanced at him and did not ask. He turned hus eyes back to his computer.

“My editor was a man.” Li Bei suddenly said shocking Bai Lian Hua who quickly turned to face him. Expressionlessly, Li Bei continued to talk: “Just the thought of the fact that I liked a man, I want to vomit.”

“………” Bai Lian Hua fell silent.

“Fortunately, I found out about it early.”A look of disgust crossed his face, “That’s right, aren’t you a pair with Chu Zhongtian? I hate homosexuals. Very much so.”

Bai Lian Hua was scared to the point that he could feel his hair standing up: “How can that be! Don’t look at our pure friendship with such an impure filter just because you met up with a man!” He isn’t even blind. Why would he be interested in Chu Zhongtian!

Li Bei smiled slightly: “Why are you so nervous?” After that, he stood up and patted Bai Lian Hua’s shoulder. “Since I’m back, you should prepare a feast for me…..Where’s Chu Zhongtian?”

“Went back home.” Bai Lian Hua replied as he bowed his head down deep in thought. Li Bei found it very strange but didn’t think too much of it. He walked towards the bathroom and said along the way “Where should we go for dinner?” “You decide.”

After that there was no sound. Bai Lian Hua thought of himself and Song Qingge. Could Song Qingge have mistakened their friendship for love? Based on Song Qingge’s personality, he probably had very few friends….Bai Lian Hua crossed his arms as he sat in front of the computer and randomly moved his mouse around. To confuse friendship as love? That isn’t impossible….but can someone tell him why he feels annoyed at the thought of this?