Forced Marriage: Escaping Her Monster

In the middle of the night, Jerlina felt very thirsty and woke up. She was stunned to see Jeremy lying beside her and she was cuddling him. With a gasp, she sat up and patted herself. She was relieved to know she wasn't hurting anywhere and she was fully clothed.

She gently poked his cheek and he was in a deep sleep. He didn't even realize it when she got up. Jerlina got down from the bed and quenched her thirst. Her head hurt very much and she took some pills from the first aid box. She checked the time and it was three in the morning and she still was sleepy.

She wondered what she should do with the big guy occupying her bed. He fixed a door chain for her door and somehow ended up sleeping on her bed.

But Jerlina remembered a lot of what happened the previous night and she couldn't blame him. She was the one who started everything. 

And I licked him like a dog! Ugh!

This is the reason why she never gets drunk. She unleashes the sides to her that she doesn't know she has when she is drunk.

She deliberated if she should push that guy down and lie on the bed. But she remembered his bruised face and decided not to. Also, he looked pitiful when he was fast asleep.

Well, he said it was his bed technically... Let him lie in a corner...

Jerlina made sure there was a lot of distance between him and her and lied back down. She fell asleep almost immediately. 

Jeremy on the other hand had a very weird dream. In his dream, Emma was standing in the woods with her hands dripping with blood. Looking at him, she smiled like usual. 

"Jerry... you can only care for me... You know I have no one but you, right?" she said and his chest hurt a lot as if someone ripped his heart out of his chest cavity.

And then the woods disappeared and he was in his shrink's room. "I told you your sister seemed to have the dark triad personality, Jeremy. But you didn't listen. And now she took your-"

Jeremy woke up with a gasp. His entire body was covered in perspiration and he rubbed his forehead trying to figure out why he had such a dream. 

Maybe because of what Jerlina said yesterday?

When he talked about his sister to his shrink she did say Emma might have the dark triad personality and suggested she takes a test or something.. He stopped talking about his sister to his shrink after that.

Ugh!

He heard the birds chirping. The sun wasn't up yet, but he is an early riser and he must have woken up early out of habit.

  Along with him, his precious little brother down there was also pretty excited and up as usual. His head hurt reminding him of the punches he faced the previous day and he could sense something was different. His chest was really warm and felt tight.

Right!

He bowed down to see Jerlina wrapping her arms around his waist and was nuzzling on his chest. Her hair was very messy and she had drooled a bit. Although she reeked of alcohol, his "excited" brain sensed a peculiar feminine scent that made him stiffer. 

She smells so good...and she's so cute...

He bent and kissed her head and her hair had a very nice smell. He could feel her b**bs sticking to his abdomen and his lower abdomen tightened making his member painful.

Ah! This is dangerous!

He really didn't want to wake up and cherish this moment since he knew he won't get such a chance again. But...

He carefully got out of her hold and stood up. It hurt down there and he took in a deep breath. He was able to control himself last night, but mornings are a different issue. 

Mornings are hard. Really really hard. Everything's hard... even peeing is hard... Being a man is hard. It is extremely hard when you wake up beside the woman you love and yet you cannot do anything with her. 

Women have it easy...

He bent and placed a kiss on her forehead and waddled out of her room. The moment he opened to door, Earl sprung in and took his place on her bed.

I wish I were a dog. Then I can sleep with her each night...

With a sigh, he slowly closed the door and left for his room. 

Jerlina woke up to the sounds of hammering and there was a couple of dog hair in her mouth. She rolled her eyes at Earl sleeping peacefully and wiped the fur all over her body. It seemed like TJ left earlier and she was glad about it.

But all the commotion I made last night...How will I face him? He confessed and apologized... What should I do?

She spent a little more time with the planter that day as she recalled the recent incidents.

"Baby... I don't know what to think anymore... Your dad... you won't mind being my baby alone, right? You don't want your dad, right? I am not going to tell him where you are," she gently caressed the leaves. 

She was not pleased with the way he handled everything and the way he behaved with her the past few times. She found that her heart had hardened against Gerard. She didn't feel any gentle feelings towards him anymore. She only felt disappointment and doubt.

A few more buds have formed as she observed. 

"You are supposed to grow as my baby... Not as a rose bush..." She wiped the corners of her eyes as looking at them made her eyes water. "Scarlett said I will start to feel better... Baby, will you think of me as selfish if that happens? Do you miss me? Are you happy? Be happy in heaven, alright?"

She started to feel a little scared. In just days, her feelings towards TJ had changed as she learned a lot about him. It was like her foundation got rattled. Gerard became a disappointment for her while TJ became more respectable. He told her what she wanted to hear and he made her feel better.

"What am I doing comparing those two?" she mumbled. "It's not like I can fall in love anymore."

She decided to pretend to not remember TJ's confession. She cannot accept it anyway. And about his apology, she didn't know. If he is not responsible for her miscarriage, his apology is unnecessary. But it did show his true heart.

Why talk about something that hurts both of us? I already told him he has no chance with me and that I consider Emma as my enemy not him. There is nothing more to talk about. 

But what if he insists to know? I even kissed him after saying I won't be moved by him. My contrary behavior will only hurt him. I have to be careful with him.

He's a good guy. He should live happily with a good woman. I won't suit him.