Chapter 282 - No, I Won’t
Tian Ni didn't bother cleaning up the mess she created. Soujin would come here, and the one he looked for would be the emperor. She, as the empress, still could get away before he came and he would not bother with her again. Planning her revenge after her escape would not be too late.
Walking through the empty corridor, she quickly came out from the harem. The capital was in chaos. From the place she stood, she could hear the people yelling and screaming. She knew. The soldiers of Ming Kingdom had reached the capital.
Turning her back, she was about to run when she notices a few soldiers walked to her front, blocking her way. Her face turned cold, it seemed she could no longer escape from this place.
"The Empress is running away!"
There was no one left to help her. She had chased away the servants in order to get the chance to kill the emperor and allowed her to escape. Before she could execute her plan, it has failed miserably. She could only hope for a chance to escape in the future.
This was the first time she felt that she should have learned martial arts in the past. The kingdoms were in the eras of war. From time to time, the city would shift their owner, and the citizen would face the terror of raids from the enemy soldiers. As a noble, she had lived a sheltered life, but it has come to an end now.
Walking back to the hall, she waited patiently. Glaring at the soldiers who dared to approach her, she made them didn't dare to get close. Her mind thought hard, she would try to get his heart once again. Maybe, this time the chance was on her.
Powerful steps came to her ear. She turned her head to see him. The person the soldiers and she herself waited for has come, General Soujin.
Soujin looked towards Tian Ni coldly. Tian Ni stared back, calmly. If he did this to her previously, she would surely be hurt. But now, all she felt was emptiness. She no longer had any feeling left for this man.
"Did you kill the emperor?"
Tian Ni looked up. The first question he asked was this one, maybe she shouldn't have any hope left in her heart that he would ask about her condition or anything.
"I did."
Soujin looked at her calmly. "Why?"
"He's annoying."
Would you kill someone just for that reason? It was impossible and Soujin knew that. He looked at Tian Ni. The girl was still the same as the one in the past. She was still hoping to have the most powerful husband, but all she wanted was only the power and achievement.
"Why did you look at me with that kind of eyes?"
Tian Ni recognized the eye Soujin used to see her. It was the eyes filled with pity and sadness. She didn't want to be pitied. She was happy with the way she lived all this time. Why would he look at her with that kind of eye?
"You should stop looking at the world that way," Soujin said calmly.
Tian Ni answered. "Why won't you look at me?"
"When I'm at the hardest moment in my life, where are you?" Soujin asked back.
Tian Ni couldn't say that she didn't know. She was still in the Ming Kingdom when it happened, but at that time, she didn't want to meet with him anymore. She thought that his life already over and he would be a trash. Yet, she had been wrong because Soujin had become even greater in the future.
If she truly loved him, she would definitely accept him as he was. However, she did not do it. She only chased after him when he was great and has the glory and power behind him. The him that she wanted was not the real him. That was why Soujin chose to leave her and never looked at her anymore even as a sister like he did previously.
"I'm not allowed to see you," Tian Ni made up an excuse.
Soujin shook his head. "Don't lie. I didn't spend two years with you accompanying me for nothing. You're only looking at what I have and not me, so I can't accept you."
Unknowingly, tears started to fall down on Tian Ni face. She didn't know the reason, but the tears just fell down on its own. Her heart obviously didn't hold Soujin anymore, but she couldn't erase her feeling just like that. Years of chasing after him left the mark in the deepest part of her heart. That mark was a permanent one that she could not erase.
It turned out, she couldn't really forget about him. "I can change. I will change for you."
"It's too late," Soujin answered calmly. If people could change that easily, how could there be stubborn people, different traits and all? They have their own personality, and they could only change bit by bit as times passed by according to their path.
Maybe Tian Ni could change, but still, she was not one he fancied. He never put her into his heart and he would never do that. If she could change, what was the use of over one decade time ever since that time? He didn't have the will to wait for that.
"Why? People can change!"
"Yes, that's true. However, even if you change, I already have another person in my heart," Soujin answered.
"If I do it earlier, will you look at me?" Tian Ni looked up.
Soujin stared at her, thinking about the question. If he hadn't met with Jun Hua, he would have never even open his heart. At that time, would he like this woman?
"No, I won't."
The tears fell down even heavier.