Chapter 96 - Sudden Outburst ..(EDITED)
When Zhao Ming saw the face of the Empress Dowager, she shivered. She recognized this face. ' the nose, the eyes, the lisp, everything was the same... It was her.'
'Her Mother.'
When her mother, Li Nian was alive, they were a happy family of three. Her Mom and Dad were happy together and Xie Ming was their dear daughter which was pampered by them.
Her mother always taught her to be independent and confident. She taught Ming to fight against wrong and never do anything that your heart does not agree with it. She was the main reason, that despite going through so much, she was not astray.
She has done nothing, that will go against her morals. She may be sharp-tongued and blunt but it was to protect herself from this cruel world.
But she has never hurt any innocent or done anything wrong. It's just she was misunderstood, and that's why her image in the modern world looked like a rude and brat who does not respect others.
It's just, she was not comfortable with anyone after living alone for so long.
When she went abroad, she was only 15 years old. She was in the age where she needs guidance and love. But instead, she was sent far away alone, to cope with the problems of this strange age alone.
Her grandfather could not keep her in the country because he knew, if she stayed in the country, she will be hurt by her bastard father. So he sent her there, away from all the problems.
But he ignored the fact that this was the time that she needed someone the most. The children who were sent abroad at an early age or sent to boarding schools will become aloof and distant from others.
It may not be the case with everyone, but most of them could not get used to this lifestyle and ended up becoming introvert or distant.
She always looked at the children who were picked up by their mothers in the car after school ended. She looked at them with emptiness and misses her mother more.
She was all alone in that foreign country with foreign people. The friends she has, are only for fun and partying but she cannot share her problems with them.
She always imagined, if her mother was still alive, her life would be different. Her family would be still, the happy family of three. And she was being pampered by her parents. She will be the little princess of the Xie Family.
But now, it can only happen in dreams.
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She never thought that in this life, she would meet her Mother again. But when she saw Empress Dowager, she remembered all the memories with her mother, her smile, her love.
She looked at the Empress Dowager with love and tears started flowing from her eyes. She stood at her place, crying loudly. She couldn't control her emotions.
She had never cried after her mother cried. Because her mother always told her not to cry, it will make her look weak.
It was only because her mother can't see her princess cry. But she would have not thought, that this word will force her to not cry even after her death.
The words said when alive, become more precious after their death. The one who dies loses nothing as they have left even their body behind. But the ones who are alive, feels pain the most. They have lost their precious ones and they know that they will not come back.
Death is the thing that makes the person most helpless. One can buy anything with money but life cannot be bought with money. Even the best doctor can't save the one, who is destined to die.
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Seeing Zhao Ming's sudden outburst everyone got scared and anxious. She just woke up from the coma and she was crying like this.
They got scared.
Especially Lu shi. Seeing her Miss crying, she also started sobbing, she got scared that something might happen to her Miss.
She tried to calm Ming down. But she started crying more loudly. Hearing her noise, more guards nearby came to look towards the noise.
They were startled to see the Empress crying like this. This was out of her character, as she was a very elegant and feminine lady, she would never cry like this.
But here she was crying loudly like a child who was just abandoned. Though it was very unsophisticated but they felt bad seeing her cry like this.
She even never cried like this, when her father died but here she was crying like someone has died.
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