Novel Full Chapter 545 Emotions that are hard to deal with
Chapter 545 Emotions that are hard to deal with
?Xue Bing opened the gate of her courtyard, seeing a handsome face with a smile on it, and gestured to invite him inside.
“Welcome, Daoist Wu”
“Hope you have been well, Prime Disciple Xue”
He chuckled, and coming through the gate watched her close it behind him.
But as they first sat in the small living room to talk, a wry smile appeared on Wu Long’s face along with a chuckle that escaped his lips, which caused icy turquoise eyes of the beauty to give him a questioning gaze.
“Prime Disciple Xue, you don’t need to freeze your emotions on purpose now, do you?”
He answered with a hint of laughter in his voice as her eyes slightly widened.
At this point, it might have looked like Xue Bing did not make much progress in controlling her physique.
Her expression, tone of voice and overall behavior were only slightly more lively than before.
But it was an illusion, as somewhere along the line, she started actively using her physique’s unique ability to freeze her surging emotions.
The more control she learned, the more of those emotions she freed, and the more she could suppress them at will.
And while it might have gone unnoticed in front of someone else, there was no chance it would work on someone like Wu Long.
“It is not like I am doing it with any malice, I just believe we would make much more progress if we are not hindered by my shyness or any other such emotion”
She spoke straightforwardly, admitting his words without much fuss and thus demonstrating the very essence of why her ability was so peculiar.
However…
“Is it not because you are not used to facing your emotions instead?”
He chuckled, and she lowered her head with a thinking gesture.
“…Perhaps…
I don’t understand how everyone walks around normally while being swept away so easily by a small gesture or look someone gives them”
She said with a pondering voice, not completely sure if what she was doing was for the sake of rationality, or reluctance to give her emotions reign over her.
“Haha, I can understand the thought, some emotions can be quite uncomfortable to deal with.
And from the position of someone who almost never had them you might see them as something unnecessary and harmful.
However, they are also what makes us human. They are that which makes our life beautiful and meaningful. And what partially drove our civilization forward.
Without them, there is no need to live life more rationally. As rationality itself is rooted in emotions.
Who would care if you abandon all rationality and live the most primitive lifestyle possible, if no one feels any emotions? You would not care how you live, or if you live at all”
Wu Long lightly laughed as he spoke, while the icy eyes looked at him with rapt attention.
“But if there is a purpose, then emotions can get in the way while rational thinking drives you forward”
She asked and he nodded.
“True, but then again, where do you take a purpose? It comes from emotions as well. And once you fulfill that purpose, what is left?
Even the most primitive competitive desire to improve and reach the top of the cultivation world, if void of everything that makes life worth living…
I’ve seen countless people who sacrifice everything for that, but what do you think would happen if they do reach it?”
He chuckled, his eyes revealing an introspective look.
“Emptiness, that’s what awaits them.
Have you ever seen coursing? It is a game common in Mortal Kingdoms of the Seven Boundless Worlds, where greyhounds would chase live prey, usually a rabbit or similarly fast small animal.
But there is no more pitiful sight than a greyhound that caught the rabbit”
Wu Long sighed with a light expression but his eyes revealed a true pity.
“But are you not reaching for the pinnacle as well?”
Xue Bing’s eyebrows were furrowed in slight confusion.
“Hahaha, yes.
Do not mistake my words for an attack on ambition, as it can be a great thing. I am just saying that if ambition if void of everything else, it defeats its own purpose.
I am not reaching for the pinnacle alone, and I do not necessarily believe that is my primary goal in the first place.
More like, I reach for the pinnacle solely to be able to protect those dear to me, and thus abandoning them to reach it is self-defeating”
A light laughter escaped his lips, as his gaze instantly changed to one filled with delight. That look caused the icy beauty to slightly widen her eyes.
“Then, if I can separate emotions that I permanently freeze, I could only leave positive ones.
Would I not be able to keep my rational thinking and enjoy what life has to offer at the same time then?”
She asked after a moment of thinking.
“Perhaps, but then again, you do know that there is a limit to how much emotions you can suppress.
You must know that now as you partially got hold of your ability, it is not omnipotent.
It is very useful to be able to suppress your emotions in certain situations, but doing so long term is only making it a matter of time before you have to deal with them, and the more you wait the worse the outcome could be. You will simply be delaying the inevitable”
Wu Long spoke in a calm, soothing voice. It was clear he was not persuading her but only expressing his opinion on the matter.
“Besides, it is not like you have absolutely no emotions at the moment, or in the past. What you can freeze is only the most intense expression of the emotions.
A bit like a deep river in winter, its surface freezes, but deep within there will still be water running its course.
Since, rationality, as I already said, at its very core is also rooted in emotions”
He then smiled, as Xue Bing raised her eyebrows in surprise.
“In fact, there is an emotion behind your decision to not face your accumulated feelings.
It is a tricky one, and is called fear, Prime Disciple Xue.
You did not even notice that it influences you as it can be very sneaky. And while you can freeze out the more extreme manifestations of it, its roots are inseparable from rational thinking”
“Are you saying that rational thinking is inherently flawed?”
“Why flawed? Fear is no flaw.
It could work against us, but there is a tremendous amount of good in that emotion.
Even courage, is not the absence of fear, but the ability to act despite it. Courage without fear is plain stupidity”
Wu Long shrugged his shoulders with a chuckle.
“Hmm, so your advise if I asked you would be to free my emotions?”
“Yes and no.
You have a tremendous gift, and it would be a waste to not use it.
Just use it only when it benefits you to do so.
It might take a while to figure out, but when you master this ability it would be a phenomenal asset for you”
Xue Bing looked at him for some time, and then after a bit, her cheeks slightly reddened as she turned her gaze away to the ability it would be a phenomenal asset for you”
Xue Bing looked at him for some time, and then after a bit, her side.
“…as I thought… it’s… not easy to deal with them”
“You will get used to it. Just remember to move gradually and not try to tackle it all at once”
He smiled at the sight of an unfamiliar expression on her face.
“But now that you are already at this point, I believe it would be inappropriate to continue without first clarifying a few things”
His smile then widened, and her eyes darted to him with dilating pupils. Her face then became calm almost as if a veil covered it and a chuckle escaped his lips.
‘Heh, she sure knows what I meant to use it when it is beneficial for her’
He inwardly mused as he watched her take control of her turbulent state.
“Are you talking about your intentions?”
“Precisely.
I will admit, at first I became interested in you because of your physique. It was back when I first met you and Mingyu for the first time.
As you know Extreme Yin Physique is incredibly precious, especially for Dual Cultivators.
But you see, my position on building relationships shifted and changed until I reconsidered”
He chuckled, causing Xue Bing to slightly widen her eyes.
“But I am a greedy man, and I usually don’t fight who I am”
He then spread his hands to the sides with a smile, as something deep within her eyes that became agitated at his prior words settled down.
“But I… am a Prime Disciple of the Frozen Garden Palace…”
“Indeed, which is why the situation became a little bit more complicated, and why I am bringing it up now instead of giving you some more time to get comfortable dealing with your emotions and desires.
In light of the fact that the Frozen Garden Palace decided to enter into agreement with me, I will soon depart to the Yin Yang Unity Palace.
Your position within the Frozen Garden Palace will undoubtedly be affected by this shift in the way it operates from now on, and at the same time it would also rely on the relationship between us.
And thus I have to clarify my intentions now, not to mention that continuing our sessions, however pure my actions may beon their own merits would be not appropriate without clearly stating, that I am courting you and would like for you to become my woman”
Xue Bing sat in silence for a moment. It should not have surprised her, and yet it still did. Her eyes looked straight at him without moving away.
“That said, you do not have to give your answer to me now. As I said, I will be going away for a couple of weeks very soon and…”
“I want to… I want to be your woman”
She suddenly said as he spoke in a usual relaxed manner, causing him to freeze for a moment, and then slightly raise his eyebrows. He was used to giving time for such a decision, which was why it took him by surprise how quickly she made up her mind.
“You can’t say that you don’t know it”
A light smile touched her lips, dazzling, as rare as it was.
She knew what her feelings toward him were long before she unlocked them. And now that she had a little more control over her physique, she knew what she wanted as well.
What she also knew, was that someone like him must have noticed somehow.
“Haha, I must say that while I had some confidence, I certainly did not expect for you to make that decision now on the spot”
He chuckled, not concealing a joyous light in his eyes.
“Well, I’ll just say that I am taking advantage of the fact that the emotions that would hinder me in having what I want are still frozen”
A slightly mischievous glint appeared in her cold icy eyes.
“Hahaha, makes sense”
A light laugh fell from his lips as she looked to the side with reddening cheeks.
“Haa~, it turns out even positive emotions can be quite hard to deal with”
She said with a degree of surprise while his smile widened.
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