Crossdressing To Survive An Apocalypse [BL]

Tian held Yue's hand tightly, assuring him with her grip. "How did Fan Xui get multiple personalities? Is something wrong with his mind? Is he sound?"

Qian just dully glared at her. "He is sound... and I said might. I'm not sure what is wrong with him. Nothing clinical explains his brain activities." He took both the scans and handed one to Tian.

"The nerve activities of both of them are very different. It was found in one case that a person with multiple personalities has exhibited. But..... see his hippocampus….I mean his frontal lobe. It was bright for the first scan. It seemed like this 'personality' was accessing his fully memories,"

Yue trembled slightly, not understanding to the full extent.

Qian sighed and explained more. "All of our memories are tied to our front brain. But most of the time, these memories are locked and unlocked when it's necessary. The first time he collapsed Fan Xui's brain was like a fully unlocked treasure box. Now it's closed again," he whispered. "Look even I don't know what is fully going on, but both the times he collapsed he was emotionally swayed by you,"

Yue looked at him with silent tears dripping down.

"First-time when he met your father he was so anxious to please him... there is highly likely that the new Fan Xui awoke then. As for now, you, you wanted the old Fan Xui back, so he is back,"

Qian grumbled, massaging his head. "You are the link to all this problem."

"That's enough. Don't speculate everything," Tian stopped him.

Qian just glared at her as well. "I am entitled to get angry, miss Tian. My friend who has been healthy and mentally sound until now is suffering right after he was infatuated with your little brother. I have every right to put blame on him. Their relationship is not sound,"

"y-you are wrong." Yue sniffed softly, wiping his cheeks. "You are wrong. I will prove you-you are wrong,"' he shot up and walked to the door with some difficulty.

Tian also followed him after glaring at Qian. "Please come to a concrete conclusion with your reports instead of speculating. Maybe Prisitsky might do a good job if given the chance." she closed the door behind her. "Fuck, I'm so pissed. I get it he is angry but he can't blame you like that..."

Yue shook his head. "I am at fault, Tian. I was immature, and that caused Fan Xui to get hurt. I'll talk to him.. alone please," he walked over to the nearby room where Fan Xui was resting. "Fan, can I come in?"

"Yue come in come in," Fan Xui got out of his bed and ran to him, helping him open the door wider.

"I have to talk to you without others' interference." he closed the door and secured the latch and walked over to the bed.

Fan Xui looked at the closed door stiffly. His ears were instantly turning a bright shade of pink.

"Fan?"

"c-coming.." Fan Xui secretly combed through his hair and even checked his breath. It slightly stank. 'Ah, what to do?'

"Fan..."

Fan Xui would over and swiftly to the bottle of water and drank it completely. "Y-yes.."

"Sit down please,"' Yue patted the spot beside him.

Fan Xui sat down quite close to him. "What is it?"

Yue looked at him with an unknown look. "You can sit comfortably. Come sit here." he pulled him up and made him sit leaning against the headrest. "there.... that's comfortable,"

All of a sudden Yue climbed on top of him, laying down completely on his body.

Fan Xui stiffly placed a hand on the side, trying his best not to touch him inappropriately.

Yue glanced up. "Am I heavy?"

"n-no...."

"Then good. I don't think I can do this any other way. Fan, I want to be honest with you. Can I?"

Fan Xui quickly realized that Yue was really anxious to tell him something. He threw away all the dirty thoughts in his mind away and solely focused on the young man in his arms. "You can tell me anything?"

"Fan, I time-traveled ten years from the future. I was reborn after I was dead in that timeline. After I woke up, the first thing I did was collect food because I knew that the world was going to end. Zombies were going to roam the world rampantly." Yue paused a bit, letting the words sink in.

"I... I also approached you with a purpose. I knew that you would get powerful in the future so.. Selfishly I was seeking your treasures."

Fan Xui was slightly frowning, listening to his story.

"In the future, one old grandpa who can see the past through his eyes told me that you gained your vision after eating a mythical lotus. After rebirth I approached you with the intent to take you." he was very guilty even admitting this.

"I was such a selfish person. I wanted to steal that treasure so I approached you. Now I don't,  I swear. I don't have any such intentions. I only want to be your lover. I don't want anything else."

He hurriedly looked up. Fan Xui's face was expressionless. But he smiled softly, caressing his hair. 

"Do you believe this? It's a wild story. I would understand if you don't believe it,"

"I have read your book. Of course, believe it. at first, I thought it was from a super powerful imagination but hearing this from you I believe that all of those happened in the future," he gently caressed his cheeks.

Zou Yue slightly sat up, peering at his dark eyes. "You have read my book?"

"It's my turn, to be honest. I was the one who brought and published your book."

"What?!" Yue crawled up closer to his face. "How... I don't understand? How did you know I was even writing a book?"

He guiltily smiled at him. "I have another truth to tell you... I can see,"

Fan Xui's heart was beating fast under his hand. Yue glanced up at him curiously. 'From when?"

"The day I found you unconscious in the curb of the road, I had my eye surgery. I'm sorry I pretended to be blind!"

"The first time I officially saw you were on the flight from Japan. I saw you scribbling something in your book. That drawing made me feel weird and the headache I had disappeared right after. I selfishly approached you to relieve my headaches. I even brought your book to monopolize it, but since you requested that it must be published free and in paperback. I did as you requested."

Yue just blinked up at him. "You were the one! oh my god, you.. you are such a fool Fan Xui. Who would make such a stupid business deal? You even paid me fifty grand," he chuckled, softly caressing his cheeks. "did you like my book? Did they relive your headaches?"

"Partially yes, after reading the book I lost interest in it. Instead, my eyes were focused on something else… someone else….because someone innocent and cute came into my life." He whispered, scathing his ears.

"I don't want you to think that I got interested in you because of your book. I... I was swayed by you. Every time I met you my eyes followed you unblinking. Little by little heart I lost my heart to you," he cupped his face completely not daring to look down.

A small hand gently pulled his hands away. "You... you like me? even after I said and did something selfish?"

"I do..." he peered into Yue's brown eyes. They were shimmering beautifully. "God... I'm the selfish one... I want to just bind you and hold you close until you get to have no other way to go. My thoughts are borderline criminal Yue. Its better you escape.... I'm dangerous."

Yue suddenly chuckled. 'Dangerous? Oh god....' he leaned forward and kissed his lips softly. "I am supposed to be the dangerous one, a thief. I came for the lotus but stole your heart accidentally."

Fan Xui breathed loudly, hugging him close. "Y-yes... you are dangerous to my heart.."

Yue could definitely feel his ear rate increase drastically. The soft breath on his neck was getting heated as well. Gulping, he glanced up at him. "Can I.. sleep with you today?"

"Yes please~" Fan Xui hurriedly cleaned a spot for him and pulled him next to him. his long arms gently enveloped him into a warm hug. "is this okay?"

"hmm..." Yue snuggled against his chest. "Fan, we should always be honest. I will never ever lie to you or hide things from you. I swear I won't hurt you..... ever again.. so.. so...." he hesitated a bit.

"Can you go out with me?"

"Be my boyfriend?!" they both said simultaneously.

Yue glanced up in shock. "You really want me as your boyfriend? I am a bad person. I approached you with bad inhesions. I was going to steal from a blind person!!"

Fan Xui chuckled. "To be honest, I think there is a slight change In your story. I don't believe I was blind during the apocalypse nor do I believe the existence of the magic lotus."

"But... but the old man said... he said that you were blind.... he..."

"You're so cute. I could have easily have made that up. Even when we were meeting, I pretended to be blind... I could have done the same in that life and made up an unbelievable thing called 'the magic lotus' when I conveniently wanted to reveal my vision. I have dangerous people around me all the time. I don't wish to reveal all the cards in my hands. I'm that kind of person."

Fan hugged him close breathing in his soothing scent. "I'm a liar too.. I lie to protect myself from getting hurt. I'm sorry I pretended to be blind because.... I was testing you to see your genuine feelings."

Yue nuzzled his nose, against his throat. "Did I pass?"

"With flying colors.. You call yourself selfish but you are the most selfless person I've seen Yue. I love you for that quality alone,"