Crossdressing To Survive An Apocalypse [BL]

"I didn't want to live anymore...."

Qian fidgeted with his long sleeve, gently caressing his old and new scars. "Then I thought of you. I just…. I just wanted to know if you had survived. I was hoping and praying with all my heart that you would because I didn't want you to pay for my mistake. I didn't want you to suffer for the sins I've done."

"bullshit." Peng Peng scoffed. "What sins? You said you were trying to find a drug that will help cancer. Is that a lie?"

"n-no, it really can. It can alter DNA, making even the sickest person healthy and well in a day," Qian whispered, wiping his tears.

"Then you were not doing a sin. You were trying to help." He scooted close but still refused to come out of his sheet's mount. "the atom bomb was created for a good purpose... but it was used for a bad reason. Just think of this mishap like that. You created a bomb, now find a good use for it. Or better yet, heal the people by finding an antidote."

Peng Peng reached out, pulling his hands into the sheets. His cool fingers gently caressed the multiple healing scars on his wrist. 

"Because it's your fucking responsibility! Before that... before that, don't even think about dying. You can't do that. You... can't leave me like that. don't even think about it, you fool"

Qian grabbed his hands. He could feel sharp nails digging into his skin as Peng Peng gripped his hand. "C-can I hug...."

"n-no.. Not now. I don't want you to see me like this?"

"Why not?" Qian sat on the edge of the bed hugging him tightly. "I don't care how you look.... just can I see you... please..."

Peng Peng trembled slightly. "no,"

"Please,"

"Not now Qian, I-I have an ugly beard. I don't want to see you like this! you.... you might get scared. So just don't ask,"

"Scared?" Qian peered at his fear-filled eyes. "Why would I be scared? I don't care if you have a beard. Please.... I want to see you. It's been a month. I really want to see you...."

He could feel Peng Peng's hesitation.

"y-you have to promise that you won't touch or run or shout or.... do anything weird..."

"Promise. Promise," Qian nuzzled his head on the sheets. "Please grace me with your cute face, my lover."

"Shut up..." Peng Peng slowly pulled down the sheets, revealing his head. He had a subtle beard on his chin, but that wasn't the only difference. His black hair was more curly and shaggier than before.....

Curiosity got the better of him. Qian tamed the protruding clump of hair down by patting it to his head.

But it trembled under his touch. "Gasp! Did it just..."

Peng Peng looked up at him with a pout. "You promised you won't!...."

Qian went to touch again this time he got a good feel of it. That was not hair... it was soft, fluffy, and it had cartilages and skin... "Is that... cat ears?"

Peng Peng dove under the sheets once again. "You broke your promise get lost,"

"Are that cat ears? Oh my god... is this a dream?" he pinched himself. "it definitely hurts. It's not a dream... Peng Peng do you seriously have cat ears." Qian reached under the sheets to touch once again.

"Would you stop it?," 

Qian could not believe it. That cat ears headband felt super real. 'Maybe my dream this morning was a premonition.... Peng Peng is really wearing a cat headband.'

"Please come out. I promise not to touch."

"You always break your promises," his lover grumbled, pushing his hands out of the sheets.

"How can I when you look so delectable? Peng Peng ah... please, come out again. I want to see you fully," Qian hugged him pulling him onto his lap.

Peng Peng froze to his touch. "You don't find it disgusting?"

"How can I find that disgusting? I find it super hot..."

Peng Peng came out of the sheets, peering at him to gauge his reaction. "You really like it?"

"Yes! I even dreamed of it this morning. You wearing sexy cat ears headband like this, in lace.... it was a very very good dream,"

His lover smiled softly. "Is that so.... but this is not a headband."

"What do you mean? It obviously is.."

Peng Peng stood up, pushing all the sheets away. The ears stood up straight and there was something moving behind his back. A long black tail curled up around his waist shyly, touching his hands.

"I... I turned into a cat," Peng Peng shyly wiggled his ass and sat down on the corner of the bed. The tail behind him swished around a bit.

Qian froze in shock... 'That…. that is definitely a tail I see…..'

His body heat went overboard and he could feel his manhood stand up for attention.

"Qian... what the hell...." Peng Peng pulled up a tissue from the bedside table and stuffed it in his nostrils. "Why are you bleeding? Did you stay up late again? How many times do I have to warn you? You can't go without sleeping. For god's sake….."

Qian just collapsed on the bed, hugging his face. Outside, his facial expressions were frozen in shock, but inside he was screaming in glee. 'My dream came true!!! Oh my god... he is a cat! cat ears! I want to touch them so bad. Bite it too.. fuck, my body is out of control,'

"Qian.." Peng Peng hovered over him. "Are you okay? Are you feeling dizzy or anything?" he gently touched his hands.

Qian turned to his side, refusing to look up. "no."

"I knew it. I knew you will hate it! aghh I look like a beast…... I'm an …. abomination!!!" Peng Peng started to sob loudly.

"Oh no, definitely not!" Qian sat up hugging him softly. "No-no, it's not that. it's just….."

Peng Peng pushed his hands away. "Just break up with me cleanly. Don't you dare lie to me? You even refused to look my way. How can i..."

Qian grabbed his face and kissed his busy lips, shutting him up instantly. He gently bit his bottom lips, peering into his shocked eyes. "sit on me,"

He gently gripped his slim waist and pulled him onto his lap smugly to his own. He gently nudged his manhood against him.

"Is this how a man reacts to a person he hates... I love them so much....gosh…..You are so sexy.. I don't know what to do if I continue looking at you."