Because I Cannot Hurt You

Zizi rapidly blinked her eyes.

Huh? Did I hear it right?

Zizi slightly peeked at his side and stiffened on seeing a huge man beside her. Every part of him screamed that he was a dangerous thug. She inwardly panicked and got afraid.

Damn it. I should get away from this spot. But he said something about Soo Yunru…

The thug clenched his fist. "Impossible. That cop cannot be on my tail. I was careful."

The other person seemed to say something to which he replied, "I will handle it. Even if that Soo Yunru does reach me, he won't get me," he sneered, "What he will get is only his death."

Zizi froze. 

D-death?

Her heart loudly thudded in her chest in fear. Obviously, this was some illegal transaction going on that she witnessed it. There was a high chance that Yunru would fall into danger. Just looking at the man sent shivers down her spine.

I-I should not meddle in this stuff. This is too dangerous. I will quickly leave with Diu and Luan!

But somehow she felt she couldn't move her body. 

No, no, no! I cannot stay here! What am I doing?

Even before she knew it, she recalled that day when Yunru had defended her in the shopping mall from that couple. Not only did he prove her innocence but also protected her from that man's violence.

That was shaking up her heart in confusion.

He helped her at that time so shouldn't she do the same this time?

What are you thinking Zizi! Move away. T-this is Yunru's headache. You will get into trouble! What if this goon hurts me? I am not any great person at all!

She gritted her teeth. The bar's exit was right in front of her, but she still didn't move.

Damn it!

Zizi feigned to get up as if she was heading for a drink. Thankfully, he didn't notice her. At a corner, she let out a deep breath. Sweat formed on her forehead. She quickly took out her phone and dialed Yunru's number.

"I will just inform him about that goon and leave. T-that's it," she mumbled to herself and her hands trembled.

But Yunru's number was coming in as busy. She tried again but to no avail.

Zizi flared in anger.

"You stupid man! Are you talking with your girlfriend for so long! Useless!" She rained curses on him.

From the corner, she saw that goon heading upstairs. 

Hey! Hey! He is moving! At this rate, he would complete his deal and escape!

She paused. "That is not my problem. I will just say that I tried calling him but he was busy with his girlfriend! Hah! So irresponsible! How did he become a cop?"

But once again, she couldn't move her body.

'What he will get is only his death.'

She couldn't understand why but that sentence made her restless and anxious. She got nervous for no reason. 

Well, he is not that stupid...Plus, idiots don't die that early.

But it failed to console her heart. What if Yunru really died?

Why am I feeling afraid for him? He has got nothing to do with me!

The thug already disappeared upstairs. Zizi bit her lip hard as she felt confused about what to do.

Just this one time!

She dropped him a message and headed upstairs.

---

Zhu villa.

Caihong shook Xiaosi's arm and called out. "Xiaosi! What's wrong?"

But it seemed as if he couldn't hear her at all. His body was restlessly twitching as he gritted his teeth.

Caihong was clueless about what to do.

When did he become so sick? Just a few hours ago, he was fine.

She almost touched his forehead to check his temperature but stopped. He was sick but that didn't mean she cared for him. The wounds in her heart were too deep to forget his cruelty.

Caihong quietly withdrew her hand and walked back to the bed. She covered herself in the blanket. But she couldn't sleep. She faintly heard him coughing and gasping again.

She tried to ignore him and shut her eyes.

But his pale condition refused to leave her mind. At that moment, he looked so weak and fragile. That Xiaosi who always mockingly talked to her was nowhere. 

Caihong got up once again and stared at him. She didn't want to help him at all, but she couldn't leave him like that either.

She stood in front of him and frowned. She tapped on his shoulder. "Get up Xiaosi."

"Hm…" he looked delirious and dizzy. "Hm...I…"

Caihong pressed the space in between her brows.

What should I do?

She thought for a moment and was about to walk away towards the kitchen when she felt him grabbing her hand.

"Don't...leave…Caihong... don't leave...me... please…"

Caihong froze.

She slowly turned back and saw his hand holding onto hers while it shook and trembled. But even so, it was tightly clutching onto hers as if he never wanted to let it go.

"Where are you... going…?"

It was clear that he was mumbling in his sleep. He wrapped his fingers around her palm. "Caihong…"

Caihong bit her lip and shook off her hand. 

"Don't touch me…"

Once again, those horrible memories flashed past her mind and she clenched her jaw feeling furious.

I am only helping you so that I can sleep peacefully.

Two minutes later, she brought a bowl of cold water and a cloth. She dipped the cloth in the and squeezed the extra water out.

Then she wiped his forehead and sweat to give him some relief. She did that a bunch of times by placing the wet cloth on his head and soon she noticed that his expression was loosening a bit. His brows weren't tightly knit anymore.

"Is it okay now?" She asked even though she thought he might jor respond.

Xiaosi opened his eyes and saw a blurred image of a woman sitting beside him. A soft smile etched on his lips.

"Caihong…it's you Caihong…"

She glanced at him.

Does he always sleep-talk every night?

As he stared at that fuzzy image, his gaze turned misty and wet. He slowly raised his hand towards her cheek, making her stiffen. Her expression turned cold.

"You…"

But suddenly, her words choked up in her throat as she noticed his gaze. 

"Heh...it's such a nice dream, isn't it? You are... beside me...like that…"

Caihong frowned and didn't understand. He was suddenly talking so differently rather than his usual behavior.

Maybe I should give him a painkiller too. He was clutching his head so…

"You know Caihong…" his fingers slightly brushed on her cheek. She was about to shake him off again but he said, "I always wanted...you to...take care of me like this…"

She jolted on hearing his words. Her eyes widened in shock as she stared at him.

"Hehe...so childish isn't it? But you… never looked at me...so this is a nice dream…"

What is he saying? Why is he saying all these things now?

"Only in the dream...I see you... smile at...me…" he coughed and his brows furrowed once again in pain.

Caihong stared at him in a daze. She couldn't make sense of his words. For seven years, he never spoke to her that way and now suddenly, his tone, his voice, his words, his expression, and his gaze was so different than before.

As if the Xiaosi she knew all these years was just her imagination.

Xiaosi kept mumbling softly, "I... really hurt you...a lot…I am a horrible man…"

She stiffened. A strange feeling erupted in her chest.

"I ruined your...life…but I promise…I will…I will make it...ri-ri- ughhhh!"

A sharp pain shot in his head again and he coughed harder. Caihong snapped from her stupor. 

"What happened?"

Just now, he seemed alright.

She quickly headed to his room and checked his cabinets.

"There must be some medicine here…"

But she found nothing so she walked into the bathroom. In one of the cabinets, she finally found some bottles that had pills in them.

She blinked her eyes.

"What is this medicine for?"

---

At the bar, Zizi cautiously headed upstairs and followed the thug keeping a wide distance between them. She saw him enter a room and shut the door hard.

She slowly stepped near the door and tried to listen in. The faint voices became clearer.

"Take this."

"How much is it worth?"

"Two million."

Zizi widened her eyes.

Two million! Just what is happening?

"What about the rest of the packets?"

Packets? She frowned.

"Once this deal is over, I will get you the rest of it too. Take this as an advance."

"Alright. What about the cop? What was his name?"

"Soo Yunru."

Zizi straightened upon hearing his name.

"Heh. He is one bastard."

Zizi nodded in agreement.

I cannot deny that.

"He thinks he got his hands on us but he is a fool. Before he reaches us, he would already be dead haha…"