Because I Cannot Hurt You

Chapter 490 You deserve nothing

　　Liao Yun smiled. “The one you loved went ahead and married another woman, and what were you left with? Yet you will still want to protect the family? Really Yueqin, I never thought you would become so weak.”

An Yueqin remained calm as she faced him. “You don’t need to try to brainwash me against Guoting. I already told this many times. He married that woman just to give Caihong a mother. He didn’t do it for his own sake. I have spent enough time with Guoting to know what he would do and why he would do that. He was never a womanizer. His heart is so pure that I felt guilty for tainting it.”

”And isn’t it nice that you realized your mistake and got a chance to get away from that ‘pure’ life you were guilty of tainting?”

Anger shone her eyes like fire as her body trembled. “Did I get away or did you forcibly take me away!?”

”Because you didn’t leave my Anu choice,” Liao Yun narrowed his eyes. “It was all going fine between us. We lived happily together…” he raised his hand to touch her, but she took a sharp step back and turned her head away in disgust. His hand froze midair and he felt a surge of anger rising in him.

”You…we lived so happily. I gave you everything you wanted, yet you ran away from me! Why? Didn’t you love me too?”

An Yueqin stared daggers at him. “And I regret that I fell in love with someone who was already married, yet instead of feeling ashamed, he carried on with this affair as if it was no big deal! You made me a homewrecker! You lied to me. You had a wife and, but you didn’t care about her. And I…Like a fool I was so happy being with you! At home, you were sleeping with your wife, and outside, you had me! Did you have any shame!? Do you think I only ran away because I was tired of the bloodshed? No! It disgusted me to be with a man who could so easily betray his wife who loved him to death!”

Her chest heaved up and down and her angry fist was trembling. 

”And the audacity to demand from me to ignore your family! Are you crazy? You wanted me to pretend as if your wife never existed? Do You know what you were asking of me? You fucking wanted me to be your mistress! Like hell I would have agreed to that! I have my dignity!”

Liao Yun was bored. “If I had been honest to you, would you have dated me?”

She was stunned. “Of course not, you idiot! You were married for God’s sake!”

”A marriage that my father forced upon me. I had every right to have a woman who I liked,” he sneered.

An Yueqin angrily laughed. “And this was how you wanted it to be? Fooling you wife and me? You know what? You neither deserved her nor me. A cheap man like you deserves to be alone! You should have been grateful that I escaped without exposing your disgusting side to your family! Your wife…she really loved you so much. It broke my heart to imagine how she would have felt meeting a woman who slept with her husband,” her gaze got misty.

”To be honest, I knew that I should have told her about us. She didn’t deserve to live with a cheater like you. But she looked so happy with you…it pained me to snatch her smile away. I couldn’t break her heart and it only benefited you! You kept living with your wife with your reputation intact. Many times…many times I felt guilty for not telling her anything.”

She breathed hard and gritted her teeth. “But still Liao Yun. My escape was not only for my freedom. It was a chance for you to mend your mistakes and be with your wife again. You couldn’t erase your past but atleast, you could have repented by making her happy. You have started anew with her. But-“

”But I found you,” Liao Yun coldly intercepted her. “In fact I have never stopped looking for you, Yueqin. I was so mad when you left me,” he clenched his fist. “So, so mad…So mad that I was happy when she died after giving birth to Yuan.”

His cruel words horrified her.

”I mean finally Luoyang left me. She was so irritating. If she hadn’t died, I am afraid I would have killed her myself,” Liao Yun said without any guilt. “At least, now there would be no reason for you to hate me, right? Luoyang was gone, so I could make you my wife. But damn you shocked me. I never imagined you would have married an influential man like An Guoting. You even changed your name. No wonder I wasn’t able to find you.”

She shot him a deadly glare.

Liao Yun chuckled. “But you couldn’t hide from me for long. But tch. I had a problem. If you had married a normal man, it wouldn’t have been difficult to take you away. But An Guoting was different. I couldn’t be careless with him so I had to plan your accident, death and then take you away from the hospital. It was a pain, though, to arrange a clone for your ‘funeral.’ I still remember how happy you were when you woke up. Your first love was standing in front of you-“

”Shut up, Liao Yun! You make my skin crawl! It wasn’t bliss…” a tear slipped from her eye, “It was a nightmare. It was a horror living that life again. Guoting gave me nothing but happiness, and you…gave me nothing but pain.”

His expression turned frosty seeing her talk so affectionately about An Guoting.

”You trapped me all these years, threatening me with my husband and daughter’s life. What did you get? I hate you from the bottom of my heart, Liao Yun. No matter what you do, I will never be yours. Just look at what monster you have become. And you fed that same monstrosity in your son, Yuan too.”