Because I Cannot Hurt You

Everybody had instantly quietened down the moment Yunru had kissed Zizi. Soo Enlai had even hid his face in his hands, his lips widely grinning the whole time. "Aish, Meili. Our son is so shameless…"

Zizz stared at Yunru unblinkingly.

What just happened? Was I kissed? Did he kiss me just now in front of everyone?

Princess felt that her brain power had suddenly depleted to nothingness. But the most shocking thing was Yunru's confession. It reached her ears, but she strangely felt that she didn't hear a single word.

"Ahhhh I completely messed up!" Yunru lacked tears to shed. "I was so damn jealous of you and Feng Xiao meeting together! It was a coincidence that I saw you two one day. But you lied about it. Feng Xiao feigned ignorance too. Then suddenly, your meetings became too frequent, and you were hiding it from me! I couldn't understand what was going on. I cursed Feng Xiao like crazy!"

Feng Xiao - "..."

"I was so mad at him that I dumped all the work on him and made his life difficult!"

Feng Xiao's gaze darkened. He clutched his chest, feeling betrayed. "You...So, you took revenge on me? How could you? Am I not your bro? Are we not buddies!?" He cried. "You were so inhumane! You were a monster! I got dark circles because of you!"

Everybody laughed hard.

"S-shut up!" Yunru shut his eyes again, feeling guilty and embarrassed. "What did I know? You suddenly started spending time with Princess. MY time with Princess! And she was willing to lie for you. She started ignoring me. She was talking less and less to me and for whom? For you? I-I couldn't help but feel if…" his face was completely red, "if she started liking you…"

Feng Xiao wanted to puke blood.

"I felt she lost all interest in me. And then today too, she acted as if she didn't know anything about my birthday and said that she would meet 'her friend' again. Feng Xiao, I truly wanted to kill you for snatching her from me!"

Feng Xiao - "..."

He combed his hair in frustration. "I was so fucking jealous! I mean, you came to my house that day and-"

"How do you know?"

"Of course I stalked you, you idiot," he looked at him in disdain as if it was so obvious at this point. "How else would I know?"

"..."

You don't feel ashamed of admitting that?

"Anyway, you came to my house and held her arm when she was about to stumble at the door," he gritted his teeth. "Only God knows how I wanted to break your hand! Why the hell were you holding her for four seconds? Are you nuts!?"

Feng Xiao was speechless. "I was just freaking helping her! Was I supposed to let her fall?"

Yunru roared. "YOU DIDN'T NEED FOUR DAMN SECONDS TO KEEP HOLDING ONTO HER. SHE WAS FINE ALREADY, YOU DUMBASS!"

Feng Xiao jolted behind Yin Liu. "You are impossible! I would never eye my brother's woman! And she is completely head in heels over you! As if she would ever fall out of love with you!"

Soo Enlai's voice broke, "O-Oh my God...I can't...take this anymore…" he laughed. "Meili, I think I might join you tonight...I-I am gonna die of laughter if...this went on…"

Zizi felt as if she was zapped by bolts of lightning one after the other. His words were sweet and possessive that made her heart thud in her chest. Even though she hadn't moved an inch, it was like she ran a marathon.

"You... felt jealous?" It took all her strength to muster out those three words.

She felt herself floating in the clouds. She even wondered if she had fallen asleep and was in a dream.

It was really nothing less than a dream for her. The man she loved so much and for whose love she yearned so much just confessed that he was jealous.

And jealousy meant only one thing.

Yunru took a deep breath. He calmed down his emotions that were rushing and breaking him apart from within. It was exhilarating, yet at the same time, he felt his heart squeeze.

He held her hand and intertwined his fingers with hers. He felt a strange sense of anxiety filling his chest. The air conditioner was in full swing, yet he felt his face turn hotter and hotter.

"Yes…I was really, really jealous. I hated seeing you two together. For the first time...I felt my place in your life was threatened. I really thought you didn't love me anymore. It was an ugly feeling," he averted his eyes, "I even wanted to lock you up at home today to stop you from meeting him."

"Pfft…" everybody laughed, but they quickly quieted down.

"I went crazy. I couldn't sleep at night. I bullied Feng Xiao at every chance I got."

Feng Xiao looked at him, aggrieved. 

You!

"I was having all sorts of negative thoughts. I even thought that you would come with Feng Xiao one day, holding hands with him and telling me that...you don't love me anymore. You always looked at me, yet you were laughing with him. I really, really felt so angry but also helpless. I couldn't understand for a long time. But then reality crashed upon me like a tsunami. I didn't want to lose you at all. You have already become an irreplaceable part of my life, and it would crush me if you... disappeared from my life one day."

There was a beat of silence.

Yunru finally looked at Zizi but was shocked to see her crying instead.

"You...Do you mean...what you are saying?" Her voice was a whisper, but he heard her clearly. She sniffled. "D-Do you understand w-what your words…"

"Of course, I do, Princess," he smiled, "I am in my full senses. I know what I am talking about. I said I was jealous. These past days were agonizing for me to watch you spend time with another man. Why would I have these feelings?"

He lifted her chin and kissed her lips again. "Isn't it because I love you so damn much?"