Because I Cannot Hurt You

*WARNING - MATURE CONTENT*

Xiaosi shook hard. He wanted to answer her question with a long, heated kiss, but the truth about their marriage stopped him. He never felt anything wrong with their relationship since he woke up. But now, he was stunned to know that reality was way different. 

Unhappy marriage? 

He couldn't believe it. Caihong was just like any other wife who would get sick worried for her husband's health. They had a lovely daughter, and they lived so happily. Xiaosi couldn't imagine having fights or arguments with Caihong. It would be the last thing he would do.

Xiaosi heard about it being a misunderstanding and his suffering, but unhappy marriage...he didn't want to imagine that Caihong was sad and in pain all these years living with him.

He whispered, his voice a little shaky, "If we weren't intimate in all these years, then... doesn't it mean that I had hurt you badly enough for you to hate me so much? I must have done something unforgivable. If that's so-"

Caihong held his face and forced him to face her. "Didn't you listen to me? It was all a misunderstanding that wasn't supposed to happen. That's why we wasted seven years in this vicious cycle. It's been enough already."

He stared at her.

"Caihong-"

"Ssh," she put her finger over his lips. "I didn't tell you this to make things difficult. I just wanted you to know where I am coming from. My feelings and my sincerity - I want you to understand why I am so desperate and what it means for me to become yours. Why I want you and why I wish it so badly. Please just know that I want to do this from the bottom of my heart."

There was a long silence.

Then he leaned closer and closer until their breaths met. His cheek brushed past hers, and his lips slightly touched her earlobe as he spoke in a hushed tone. "You don't have to ask me, Caihong. I fell for you the moment I saw you. I didn't know what it was that pulled me towards you, but I knew that I only wanted you and nobody else."

She trembled.

"I was hesitating because I had lost my memory. I didn't dare to act too familiar to you. When you had said that you were my wife, I felt as if I was the happiest man in this whole wide world. I was literally dancing in my mind. I wanted to hug you and kiss you, but the memory gap didn't allow me to suddenly act as a lovey-dovey husband. I didn't even know who I was. But I had been patiently waiting for the day when that inhibition would finally disappear between us. That's why right now, I am asking you again. Do you really want this? Because I had been holding back for far too long now. I might not give you the liberty to step back later."

In response, Caihong unbuttoned one of his shirt buttons and softly pecked his cheek. "I guess you got my answer."

It was the same thing he told her when she had nervously asked him about her gift.

Xiaosi smiled and bit her earlobe between his teeth, making her sharply gasp. He lifted her in his arms and walked towards the bed that was filled with rose petals. They playfully jumped as he laid her on the soft bed.

She blushed, feeling herself pinned between his strong arms. But strangely enough, she wasn't shy or embarrassed. On the contrary, a certain boldness filled within her with the desire to have Xiaosi. Which reflected exactly the same in Xiaosi's eyes. 

Without waiting any further, they crashed their lips. Nobody knew who started it, but all they wanted was to melt completely as they kissed the hell out of each other. They didn't care if they were breathless. They didn't care if their lips hurt to fiercely meet and press over and over again. Their tongues met in no time, and they impatiently dived into each other's mouth unanimously.

Along with their lips and tongues, their hands refused to stay behind in the party. Xiaosi wandered his fingers over her smooth and fair shoulder that went all the way to her back, where he felt her zipper and the border of her bra. Caihong's palm traced the outline of his chest through his shirt. She felt grumpy, feeling the rest of the buttons still tightly buttoned.

Just like their kiss, nobody knew who went first, but it was almost at the same time that her dress loosened up, and so did his shirt. Xiaosi's coat and shirt were on the floor, and a moment later, Caihong's dress and bra joined them down, too, as he lifted her arms over her head and pulled them off.

Still kissing and not caring a damn about their chests begging for a long breath, they face each other, half-naked. His toned and muscular chest came into view and so did Caihong's beautiful breasts that softly bounced on him.

That finally distracted them, and they realized they needed more than just kissing each other's lips. Xiaosi parted, and panting heavily, they took a deep breath to their heart's content. They stared hard at each other. Caihong bit her lip and wrapped her hands around his neck. She pulled his head closer and closer until Xiaosi finally couldn't hold the temptation and put her soft, bouncy breast into his mouth.

Her eyes widened, and a moan escaped her lips. "Ennn!!"

It was cold before, but now it felt warm inside his mouth and more so when his tongue slurped and swirled around. The pleasure ratchet like a rocket, and she shut her eyes, savoring the moment

Caihong didn't remember anything about that first night they shared. Even if she had, it would have been only a painful and hateful thing to bear. But now, she wanted to burn every memory of this night deep into her bones. 

She never forgot their first night. It was because of hatred.

And now she swore not to forget this night either and this time....because of love.