Because I Cannot Hurt You

*Warning - Slightly Mature*

The last trace of hesitation and doubt faded away as his lips touched hers. The moment her soft lips came into contact, his heart overwhelmed in pure bliss. He felt as if the happiness he was chasing after so long was finally in the palm of his hands.

He couldn't pinpoint why he felt that way. There was a sense of melancholy that engulfed his chest. A bittersweet feeling. 

But he couldn't realize why he felt that sadness enveloping his chest. It was as if after a long, long journey, he finally reached the person he desperately wanted to for all this time.

In his mind, there was a blurry image. There was a woman's back. He was standing behind her with his hand raised towards her. He chased after her. He ran after her. But the distance never lessened. In fact, it only grew larger. He didn't understand why he felt that uneasiness crept within him. 

He never told this to Caihong. But he was getting that same recurring dream again and again. A woman's back and him chasing after her, giving him nothing but sadness. He felt disdain and disgust for him. Sometimes he felt that she purposely walked faster so that he couldn't reach her. He could sense hatred emanating from that woman's figure as if she never wanted to turn and look at the man behind her.

And her hatred was what brought him incredible sorrow.

But why?

Ever since he woke up, didn't he and Caihong live in harmony? She smiled at him. She took care of him. She got angry when somebody humiliated him. She stood up for him. They had a lovely daughter together.

It was a happy marriage, right?

Then why did he see such painful dreams was what Xiaosi always wondered.

But now those thoughts that brought grief to his heart washed away when Caihong ever so slowly placed her hands on his shoulders. He felt her hands trembling and her fingers tightening onto his shirt she clenched in her fists. All his remaining doubts fled away when her shivering lips moved in tandem with his as he captured her mouth. Their breaths and heartbeats were in sync.

It was a moment that broke apart everything for them and Xiaosi wanted more. He wished to dive in that oasis that he reached after a long, painful journey through the desert. His white teeth dug into the soft flesh of her lower, making her shudder. He darted out his tongue that tenderly traced the outline of her upper lip and she knew what he wanted.

With a face as red as a tomato, she slightly widened her mouth and with a satisfied smile, he ventured into the inviting depths. She took a sharp breath as their tongues clashed for the first time. 

Their heartbeats quickened and a soft gasp escaped her lips. Xiaosi froze for a moment. But then a strange giddiness arose in his chest. Her mild peachy smell that invaded his nostrils was making him more and more impatient and intoxicated.

After a long time, he parted away and gazed at her flushed face. The blush on her cheeks that reddened all the way up to her neck passed a gulp down his throat. He had an urge so he leaned and pecked the crimson tinge on her face and slowly traveled down her neckline. His feathery kisses left a tickling sensation. It touched her skin for just a moment but she could feel the heat building up at the spots where he kissed.

He took her hand and intertwined his fingers against her. Once again he left a string of kisses that made her heart go into a frenzy. From her arm, he went up to her shoulder that brought him to her chest. 

Her soft breasts that pressed themselves on his chest made his cheeks go as beet red as Caihong was. His fingers trembled and his heart beat like crazy when he ever so slowly cupped one breast within his palms.

Caihong stiffened and blushed harder.

Even through her dress, he could feel the softness in his hand. She softly whimpered as she felt him tracing the outline of her breast that reached up to her valley. The gentleness with which he lovingly touched her made her eyes slightly misty.

This was the Xiaosi who loved her. He wasn't a merciless beast that had selfishly ravaged her that night seven years ago.

Her clothes got slightly disheveled as he buried his head in her chest and peppered soft kisses. His fingers wandered along her beautiful curved waistline and then towards her thigh that teased his way. She bit her lower lip and clutched his neck harder as a tingling and pleasurable feeling coursed through her.

Xiaosi kissed her lips again as they stared into each other's gazes, they felt a need for more pleasure. Their black orbs twinkled for something more.

As soon as his finger hovered over her sweet spot, she shuddered and softly moaned. Her sweet voice echoed in his ears and their breaths grew haywire. Lost in their growing emotions that made them go crazy, the intimate act of him pleasuring and satisfying her continued as the hands of the clock slowly ticked by.

Caihong's chest heaved up and down, taking deep breaths as she just climaxed. The tingling sensation broke every barrier as it crazily attacked every cell of her body. It was simply so exhilarating that she already felt dizzy and tired as if she ran a long marathon. It had been seven years since she had been this intimate, so for her, it was as good as her first time.

A similar ecstasy filled Xiaosi's heart too. He glanced at Caihong and chuckled, seeing her eyelids turning heavy and drooping for a sleep. He kissed her forehead and wrapped the duvet over her.

"Take good rest, wife."

"Hmm…" she mumbled. She tried to fight her sleep, but it was of no use.

Xiaosi slowly got up. It was still quite early in the evening so he figured he might do some work while she rested.

His gaze was warm with a loving smile lit on his lips as he whispered, "Next time, there would be no escape, Caihong."