Because I Cannot Hurt You

Xinyi said, "Siying, how can you think that your Mama and Dada want you anymore?"

Siying cried. "I hurt Mama Dada…"

Zhiyuan was taken aback. "But Siying. Didn't we say that you don't have to think about it anymore? We are not angry at you at all. We never blamed you for anything and we will never stop loving you. Did Xinyi and I scold you? No, right?"

Siying bit his lips and rubbed his eyes. "Bad dweam…"

"Dream?"

He nodded. He gasped. "Mama Dada mad at Siying and said not want Siying anymore. You don't want to live with me anymore…I hurt Mama Dada so very mad."

They were stunned. Suddenly they recalled the night when Siying had left the room on his own and cried hard in the corner. He was shaking and trembling so badly and now they knew why.

Her heart twisted in pain and she hugged him. "Siying that was just a dream. Dreams are not real."

Zhiyuan quickly nodded. "Yes. You had that dream because you were still scared of what happened at the picnic. But there is no way that we will leave you. Parents don't abandon their children like that," he patted his head. "We don't hate you. We never had and we never will."

Siying looked at his father's gentle expression and his heart eased up. 

"En," Xinyi wiped his tears and cupped his face. "Why didn't you tell us about such a dream? You always share everything with Mama, right? Good things, bad things, scary things...why didn't you tell us this? I would have scolded the dream for bullying my Siying! How could it lie to you? Mama Dada love you the most!"

Zhiyuan chuckled. "Of course. You are the apple of our eye."

Siying shifted his leg from side to side. "But…"

"But?"

"Why send me away? I want to live with Mama Dada but Mama Dada wants to send me away."

They were confused. "Send you away from where?"

Siying fumbled a bit with the word. "O-O-phanase."

"Ophanase…?"

Caihong blinked her eyes and furrowed her brows. "You mean... orphanage?"

He sadly nodded.

She looked at him dumbfounded and so did the parents themselves. Xiaosi raised his brow. Even Yunru couldn't hold back his shock.

"Orphanage? Sis and brother-in-law decided to send you to an orphanage? Impossible!"

Xinyi and Zhiyuan shared incredulous glances and then they looked at him in shock. "No way! We will never send you to an orphanage."

"D-Don't send me away…?" His eyes teared up.

They quickly hugged him in their embrace. Xinyi anxiously said, "No, dear. I cannot live without you even for a moment. How can we bear to send you to an orphanage? This is just too extreme. No Mama and Dada would ever do this to their children!"

Zhiyuan said, "Yes, son. Even if children may make mistakes, parents will never be that harsh to abandon them. Everybody makes mistakes sometimes but that never means that people decide to let go of their family. We never thought of sending you anywhere away from us. Never ever."

His tearful eyes slowly gleamed in joy. The burden on his little heart that he was carrying all this while lightened up. But there was still one question.

"But Mama not pick me up in school…" he clutched his pants. "I waited but Mama not come. So I...I thought Mama not love me anymore."

Xinyi was aghast. "I came Siying! I came to pick you up! But you weren't there. I-I am really sorry that I got late. Aunt Guang got hurt in her ankle so Mama had to take care of her for a while. That is why I got late. But Mama really came to pick you up. I promise. I searched for you everywhere in school but I didn't find you," her eyes teared up, "You scared me so much."

Siying buried his face in her chest and sobbed. His small body shook with delight and a little fear too. "Mama Dada really love me?"

Zhiyuan picked him up and smiled brightly. "Always! Mama and Dada love you so so soooooooo very much!!! Your Mama cried so much because her favorite Siying had left her."

He wailed. "I don't like Mama cry."

She chuckled as she wiped her tears. "If you don't like to see Mama cry, then don't leave Mama, okay? Don't disappear like that ever again. You-you still don't know how bad the world is…"

Her heart still thudded in trepidation as she thought of the scenarios where Siying would have gotten hurt.

Siying trembled. "Bad people! Mama, I was walking. So many people there. One push me and I fell. He mad and angry at Siying and shout at me."

Zhiyuan's face darkened.

Who dares yell at my son?

He rubbed his eyes and sniffled. "T-Then I was hungry and I go to a shop! The man cook sandwiches! But he got angry at me too because Siying has no money to give. I ran away...He was scary…"

At this point, Zhiyuan's temper flew so high that a strong killing intent surged in his chest. He literally felt as if he would murder that shop owner if he appeared before him at this moment. Even Xinyi couldn't hold her frustration and anger. Tears pooled in her eyes, thinking of Siying crying and hungry.

How can anybody be that harsh to a child!

Caihong teared up and sniffled. "Damn that bastard!"

Xiaosi grimaced. "Why are you crying? It's not Chyou."

She glared at him. "Don't tell me that Siying went through such horrible things and you don't even care a little bit!"

"I have got my own daughter to worry about," he dryly said.

She gritted her teeth and looked away. "Impossible!" She cursed him under her breath.

Yunru smiled and mumbled while cracking the knuckles on his hand. "Sometimes, I wonder why I am a cop and bound by law. I want to beat the crap out of that shop owner."

On the other side, Nana burst into tears, listening to his heartbreaking side of the story. Jun and the twins looked at her speechless.

Why are you crying now?

Baby Jin was questioningly watching her. "Aboooo?"

Jun's mouth twitched. "Too many tears here."

Jian asked, "Is it gonna flood here?"

Nian shook his head. "Women are so emotional."

Nana smacked her son's head. "Why shouldn't I cry? This is so hurtful. Poor Siying was roaming around the city all hungry and with an empty stomach," she pursed her lips. "Did I feed him too little?"

Well, Nana was a mother and on top of that a chef too. The pain she felt was double.

Jun grimaced. "Mom. Did you see his stomach? It was going to burst. You would have hurt him by making him overeat!"

Jian and Nian murmured. "We have to be careful of how much she feeds us now or we gonna get in trouble."

She sniffled and wiped her tears. "Did you say something?"

"Nope!" They vigorously shook their heads.

Xinyi checked him from head to toe. "You are not hurt, right? Oh no! You must be so hungry!"

Nana approached them and smiled. "No need to worry Mrs. Han. Siying had his meal. I fed him myself. Isn't that right, Siying?"

He nodded hard. "Aunt's food was so yummy!"

She chuckled. "Thank you, dear."

Zhiyuan and Xinyi immediately thanked her. "Thank you so much! We are really grateful to you."

"It was my pleasure. Siying is a good boy. He ate everything so nicely without picking his veggies at all," she narrowed her eyes on her twins, "as opposed to my sons."

The twins coughed and looked away as they whistled.

Xinyi said, "It was your son, wasn't it who saved Siying and brought him here? Can I meet him?"

"Oh yes! Jun!"

Jun hopped forward and raised his head. 

Nana smiled. "He is Liu Jun. Remember, he was just a baby when we met last time?"

Zhiyuan blinked his eyes questioningly. 

Met last time?

Xinyi slowly widened her eyes and looked at him in shock. "Y-you are Liu Jun?"

"Yes. Nice to meet you, beautiful lady."

Zhiyuan coughed hard and his mouth twitched violently. 

Nana looked at him, stunned. "Huh?"

Jun pushed his spectacles up. "What? Beauty should be appreciated."

Xinyi slowly kneeled on the floor and stared at him. Her hands trembled as she held his shoulders and before she knew it, she pulled him into her hug and quietly sobbed.

Zhiyuan widened his eyes and so did Nana. The twins curiously looked at her.

Her lips trembled as she spoke, "T-Thank you…"

Jun furrowed his brows.

"Thank you so much…" she whispered. "You saved him... again."

Jun frowned.

Again?

"Today was the first time we met, beautiful lady."

Xinyi softly chuckled. "No. This is not the first time. We have met before. At that time, Siying was in my belly and you were just born."

"So technically, we didn't meet," he stated.

"But you still saved my son. It was because you were there that I…"

"That you?"

That I didn't kill him.