Back Then, I Adored You

He paused from taking puffs and looked down before he took another long puff, like he wanted to torture himself this way.

Gu Yusheng had no idea how many cigarettes he had smoked. He only knew that he smoked almost every cigarette he had in his office. When he recovered his composure, there were cigarette butts in different lengths and a thick layer of ash around his feet.

It had grown dark outside. The weather was unbelievably nice that night, the round moon hanging in the sky and illuminating the dark night. Some of the lights on the city streets were bright, while others blinked.

What a brilliant and beautiful night view of the city!

He had planned to propose to her on this beautiful night.

It would have been a wonderful and unforgettable night with the surprise he had planned for her and such a beautiful view, but…

At this moment, this beautiful view suddenly seemed gloomy to Gu Yusheng.

No wonder she never used any gift he had given her; no wonder she had never spent a penny using the debit card he had given her; no wonder she had made excuses to turn down his suggestions to shop together.

He had even used tricks to test if she liked him. That night, she had asked him to take a shower and said the cologne on him stunk. He had thought she was jealous. Apparently, he had been overthinking it.

She had wanted to take advantage of him, but he had wanted to spend the rest of his life with her.

What irony!

Gu Yusheng curled up the corners of his mouth and smirked.

He never regretted falling for her. Even at this moment, when he heard what she said about him, he still didn’t regret for falling for her.

It was fine if she didn’t like him.

However, he couldn’t accept the fact that she had lied and crushed his pride.

Thinking of it, Gu Yusheng forced his saliva down his throat. He noticed that his throat was so sore that it seemed to be on fire after smoking too much. His mouth tasted bitter, and his throat hurt.

The pain from the throat travelled to the far left part of his chest, which roared and rattled. It cut his heart into pieces and bled.

He was so hurt, realizing that love could not only make him happy, but also hurt him so badly.

He couldn’t stay there any longer. He needed to go out and breath some fresh air.

Gu Yusheng thought about it and searched his cell phone and car keys out from the mess, then walked out of the office.

He didn’t know where to go. He simply drove around the city without any destination in mind. He stopped at a red traffic light and continued driving when it turned green.

On the way, he passed the community that contained his house several times. Each time, he almost turned into the complex, but he drove away at the end.

He didn’t know which road he was on, but he pumped the gas when it eventually ran out. He hit the break and gas alternately until his feet started to hurt, then parked the car on the sidewalk. He looked like a flattened balloon, resting on the steering wheel without moving even a bit.

…

At the grand and luxurious house, Qin Zhi’ai picked flowers from the garden that evening. They looked so fresh and beautiful in the dining room and smelled amazing, too.

The dining table was set with beautiful candle holders. Amazing food had been placed on the pretty plates.

Qin Zhi’ai quietly sat at the table, looking outside the window without even blinking. It was getting darker and darker outside.

She had been preparing dinner since three o’clock that afternoon, and she finally had everything ready at six thirty. Even though there was only two of them, she had cooked a full table of food.