Novel Full Chapter 41: Alone (One)
Chapter 41: Alone (One)
On behalf of Shiro
So far, so good. I think the “Leader” skill has made a huge contribution to this situation. I am sure that if you pump it completely, then the problems associated with the leadership will simply disappear. Well, or at least they will decrease.
Eh… just became the head, and already I feel responsible for the lives of these people. Yes~a… All this time, after talking with Yuriko, I was tormented by various thoughts. Have I been too hasty in agreeing to bear this burden? Was it worth it?
Thinking about all this, I realized that I did what I wanted. Previously, my plans were for a quiet, peaceful life on the island, but now… now I don’t want such a life.
I underestimated myself. And the system, too. Slowly but surely my character has been changing and now I want more drive. More battles. More adventures.
Of course, I didn’t become an adrenaline junkie or a combat maniac, but eternal calm is also too much. We need a balance. That’s how I came to the point that I want to lead these people. Plus there are delicious rewards.
The only thing that is very disturbing is that I made this decision without consulting Saeko. I didn’t even warn her about it!
But the most terrible thing!
The scariest thing is that she doesn’t talk about it! Behaves as if everything is normal and nothing has happened! Goosebumps from this. It would be better if she nagged me for it than like this.
Someone may say that it is on the contrary good. She accepts everything you say, doesn’t complain and is just ready to always follow you.
But I don’t want that. It is important for me that we are on an equal footing. It’s important for me to hear her opinion. I am always ready to compromise with her, but such cases are rare.
Maybe Saeko loves me so much that she’s willing to put up with everything? Maybe he thinks that everything I do is only better for us? None of this suits me. I want her to be my soul mate, not the subject.
And this is not my only problem.
I am constantly gnawed by thoughts that without the system, Saeko would not even pay attention to the past me. In fact, everything I have is given by the system and the only thing left is the character. And even he is slowly changing.
It also gnaws at me that my system, my skills and abilities are forcibly changing people. After all, if you judge, then no woman will agree to share her man with someone. Immediately, Saeko herself imposes a harem on me with all her might. This is not normal, delusional.
These obsessions are drilling into my brain. And although I understand that it’s stupid to think about it, it’s not so easy to get rid of these thoughts.
From the third person
For some time now, Saeko and Shiro had been walking calmly through the port territory. And all this time they were silent. Usually it wasn’t a problem, but now there was an awkwardness and a bit of tension in the air.
And all because there was a whirlpool of different emotions in the guy’s eyes. Mostly he was just nervous, and this has become a rarity for him.
After a moment, the girl also noticed this tension. – Honey, is something wrong? Do you want to tell me something? She asked anxiously.
Realizing that the girl was worried about him, Shiro mentally reproached himself for stupid insecurity and gathered his thoughts into a bunch and decided to speak out.
– Saeko, it bothers me that you don’t react in any way to the fact that I decided our future myself. – the hero said seriously.
– Hmm? She looked at the guy questioningly.
– I didn’t tell you anything about becoming the head of the camp. Heck! I didn’t even think about it! But this directly decides your future with me! – he spoke loudly, angry with himself.
– Don’t worry so much Shiro. I don’t mind. The girl replied calmly, smiling.
This calm response with a smile irritated the guy…
– What?! Why? Saeko, honey, why? You are neither a servant nor a slave. You’re my soul mate. My love. I am ready to move mountains and drain seas for you. Shiro said sensually, looking lovingly at the girl.
“Honey, I know that. That’s why I trust you. –
– But…–
– Wait. I haven’t finished yet. Saeko interrupted him, looking at him with tenderness.
Shiro immediately realized that Saeko wanted to say something important, so he just decided to listen to her in silence.
“I trust you for a reason, Shiro. Strength, knowledge, skills. You have all this in great abundance. You trite surpass me in everything. But most importantly, I know and see that you love and cherish me. And that’s why I’m sure you’re using your abilities for our good and happiness. That’s all. Besides, it will be very boring to live a quiet life. she finished with a smile and love in her eyes.
For a while, Shiro was silent in an attempt to turn over the new information.
For a while there was a struggle between feelings in his eyes
Shiro was very touched by the trust provided by the girl…. On the other hand, the thoughts that the system was to blame for all this began to gnaw at his mind more strongly.
– “Damn! What’s the point of thinking about it? I still can’t change it in any way…. The main thing is that we are happy, the rest does not matter.” – the hero came to the conclusion after a long thought. –
Thank you for this trust Saeko…. I will do everything to justify it. I promise. – he said in a gentle tone in which there was a steely determination.
– There is no need to make any promises to Shiro, because I understand that I am shifting all the responsibility to you. I know that this burden is quite heavy, which is why I will support you as much as I can. – she said with tenderness in her voice, looking into Shiro’s eyes.
A mystical force formed in the hero’s chest and spread throughout his body. The feeling that you can split mountains and seas overwhelmed Shiro. Energy flooded the body and the desire to “act” was stronger than ever before. A real “boom” of motivation.
– Sometimes it seems to me that I don’t deserve a girl like you Saeko…. But then I realize that if not me, then who? Shiro said with a grin and grabbed the girl in a tight embrace.
– Ahahah! Mmmmm…. – the loud girlish laughter of joy that was like bells was interrupted by a passionate but tender kiss.
Standard for them, but such pleasant tenderness was over only after a few minutes. Zombies won’t die by themselves.
A few minutes after their calf tenderness, Saeko brought up an interesting topic…
– Shiro…–
– Yes? –
Seeing that she managed to capture his attention, she dropped the bomb.
– Have you already thought about expanding our “cast”? I already have candidates for the “battle sisters”. she said with a cheerful grin.
That’s just a serious and focused look gave away how important this topic is for her.
– This is…–