A Billion Dollar Exchange

''What… what is this? ''

Xin Yong asked, slowly pulling open the piece of paper. Liling couldn't respond; she was still trying to hold in her tears; she found a nearby seat and sat down as she wiped her face with a hankie.

It was a letter and it was addressed to her, but with a name that was used by only one person in the whole world__ Jin Yue.

''Sweet ''…

Immediately Xin Yong read the first word, she collapsed to the floor;

''Liling, what… what happened… what happened to Jin Yue? Tell me!! Tell me now!! ''

Xin Yong was as pale as pale can be, she was sweating all over as the possible thought of what could have happened, came hitting against her heart.

''Xin Yong… he attempted suicide because of you... ''

Liling said in between tears.

Xin Yong, for about for about five seconds, lost her sense of hearing. She could only hear echoes and nothing else.

''You're joking… You're joking right? ''

Her heart was beating rapidly as her chest heaved heavily. She was slowly losing breath but she struggled to keep herself sane.

''That was his note to you… it was in his hands when… when we found him. ''

"No, no…Liling, no, it's a lie. Jin Yue… Jin Yue cannot … he cannot…''

Xin Yong couldn't breathe well anymore, she was sweating profusely and the world around her was spinning rapidly.

''He was rushed to the hospital but he's in a very critical stage right now, no one knows if he would survive it. ''

Xin Yong pulled herself from the ground immediately;

''Please take me to him, oh god… I'm so sorry, what have I done… Jin Yue! I'm so sorry… ''

Xin Yong was crying like a baby, she couldn't even get hold of herself. She could not believe that he could go to the extent of killing himself because of her. That was crazy! Who does that!

''Stop crying, you don't' want everyone asking you what's wrong. ''

Liling said and Xin Yong immediately wiped her eyes. When she had put herself together a little, they left the studio for the hospital. In Liling's car, Xin Yong couldn't stop crying; she tried controlling herself and opening the letter again;

Sweet;

The moments I spent with you were the most blissful moments of my life. I was living a mirage before I met you and after you left I returned to that state, but this time it was worse.

I hurt you against my wish but I cannot alter what has happened. I regret causing you pain but I can't change that, what's done is done.

When you said you would have dinner with me, I was so happy; I thought it was our chance to be together again, but who would have thought you came to end it finally between us.

If I knew it would end like that, I would have taken note of every last moment between us; i would have cherished every gaze and every contact we made with each other…

Yesterday, Liling called to tell me you were drunk, Sweet, you can't imagine the joy that I felt to know that I could see you once more, I could touch you, I could hold you…

And to think my luck wasn't enough, when I carried you, you hugged me… Sweet, you hugged me back…

At that point I didn't want time to go on, I wished everything could just stop and let me relish those moments with you in my arms,

Sweet, thank you for giving me something so special, something I wouldn't find across seven seas and seven oceans to the east. Thank you for giving me your love, I'm sorry I couldn't take care of it. I'm sorry I couldn't be the man you want to spend the rest of your life with.

After sending you home, I realized that life without Sweet in it is meaningless. You deserve better and I wouldn't deny you that, but I can't bear to see you with another person, so I'll end it here.

Maybe this was how it was meant to be; please don't blame you for anything, it was all my fault and I think it's time to serve my punishment.

Thank you for making my last day on earth memorable;

I love you, Xin Xin.

I love you Sweet. ''

At this point Xin Yong was wailing uncontrollably;

''You stupid head, why would you kill yourself! Why!! Chauffeur, drive faster! What's wrong with you? Do you want me to take over?! ''

The letter in her hands was already soaked with her tears, her hairs gumming to her skin.

''Liling, how long before we get there? We've been on the road since!!''

Xin Yong complained untiringly; seemingly impatient. At that moment, the only thought on her mind was to see Jin Yue, she hadn't thought of what to do when she saw him, but she was sure she wanted to see him.

''We're here. ''

Liling said pointing at the hospital building. Xin Yong stepped out of the car before the driver could pack the car properly. Not waiting for Liling, she raced into the hospital.

After some seconds, she raced out again;

''Hurry!! Let's go!! ''

She realized that she didn't know the ward he was in, so running in without Liling was no use.

Liling slowed her pace as they approached the ward. Not waiting for anyone's command, Xin Yong pushed opened the door and stepped in. Liu Wei was standing by the window side, his hands around his torso, his head slightly bowed.

Jin Yue was lying motionlessly on the bed, looking as pale as grey, his eyes tightly shut.

Just as Xin Yong stepped in, two doctors, who were standing beside his bed lifted the quilt on his body and covered his face with it.

Xin Yong froze in her steps;

She could hear her heart beating louder than everything else in the room.

''Why … what are you doing? ''

She asked, her voice almost gone from how much she had cried;

The doctors turned around to look at her;

''Miss, who are you? ''

''I said what are you doing, why are you covering him?! ''

She raised her voice, her face as red as coal.

The doctors were quiet for a few seconds before one of them spoke up;

''Ma'am… this young man just passed away…''

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