A Billion Dollar Exchange

Jin Yue stared at the clothes in the closet, reality dawning on him. She left without taking the things he got her, Jin Yue did not know why, but he felt as though she was trying to erase every memory of him.

He stumbled backwards for a moment, before getting hold of himself.

Memories of them together came flashing back; Jin Yue felt his head spinning and he immediately stumbled backwards, until he slumped on the bed.

Why was he feeling like this?

She had clearly cheated on him! He should be mad, why wasn't he mad? Why was he wishing that she would come back?

The more Jin Yue thought about it, the more guilt overwhelmed him.

What if she was not cheating?

What if that person was just a friend from the company?

No, he had his arms around her, and he even helped her remove a stain from her face, and she was blushing!

No normal friend would be that close, and if he was a normal friend, why did she not tell me about it? She even lied to me!

Jin Yue shook his head severally to get the thoughts of her out but it was not working, every moment they spent together in that house, came haunting him.

Jin Yue realized that he could not stay a minute longer unless he wanted to die. He immediately stood up and made to leave the room before his eyes fell on a piece of paper on the vanity table, his steps coming to a halt.

He walked over to the table, there was a paper and a little box on top of it; he shifted the box and picked up the paper.

It was a letter…

Jin Yue's heart beat frantically as he held the letter in his hand; he hastily walked over to the bed and sat down again. Some part of the letter, had its ink smudged, as though the writer was crying as she wrote it. Jin Yue felt a pang in his heart; he swallowed hard and forced his stinging eyes to read.

… Jin Yue,

   I never thought I could one day be writing you these words. If someone had told me that it wasn't love, I wouldn't accept. As I write this, I ask myself, what did I do so wrong?

I loved you with everything… I practically lived for you. You were my world, Jin Yue, you were my rising sun.

As I thought back to our story, I realized I was stupid.

I loved you blindly, I trusted you when you said you had changed, who am I? Who am I to change you?

I trusted too much, and I hoped for too much. When I asked you if you ever loved me, I wanted to know, if I made a mistake and when you said, you never loved me, I realized I had been living a wasted dream.

Jin Yue, I don't regret falling in love. I don't regret experiencing this, even though it was not true, you let me believe it was; that I'm grateful of.

I waited to wish you a happy birthday before I leave, but you did not come back, I wanted to tell you how much you meant to me and how very happy I was when you asked me to marry you.

Jin Yue, your name will forever be engraved in my heart, but from now onwards I'll try to make it beat to a different pace, now that it will no longer have the sound of your voice to move it.

Be happy and I pray you find someone whom you'll love, it's a beautiful feeling and I wish you would let yourself experience it. I don't regret falling in love; my only regret was falling in love with you.

                                                                                                                                               Xin Yong

Jin Yue only realized that he was on the floor, weeping like a baby when he finished reading the letter. She had even remembered his birthday, so she did not leave that day, only if he had come back, he would have seen her. Now he thought about it, he realized that he did not even show her those pictures.

He did not even let her know his reason for letting her go! What if he was the one she loved? He had pushed her away, just like that? What had he done?

Jin Yue nearly fainted as all those thoughts flooded his head. He held his head with both hands as he wept.

Jin Yue did not know how many hours he spent crying like that on the floor, when he came to himself, he stood up from the ground and walked to the dressing table. Picking up the little box, he pulled it open and there lay her engagement ring.

Shiny and beautiful, it looked as though no-one had worn it. The tears that had dried started falling over again. Jin Yue, not able to take it anymore, dropped the box and dashed out of the house.

He could only breathe when he was safely in his car. He immediately started up the engine and drove off. He did not realize that he was still holding the letter until he was miles away.